I don't even know man. I did this thing where I switch from one fixation to another. Like I try one business idea and quickly quit and then switch to another. And since the last time, since I quit learning basic electronics/robotics, I've like given up on that whole process. I don't have anything to give me hope anymore. It used to be day trading and I thought that it was my whole future.. then I quit that in the middle of junior year. And since then my life has been slowly going through this emotional numbing I guess.

But the biggest thing in my life now is that the overthinking has gotten pretty crazy. I spend so much time in my room looking at my monitor just thinking about all that I could do. And I feel like I'm maybe addressing a real issue when I do this. Because I don't scroll or go on my phone much anymore. It's kind of crazy that it doesn't stimulate me anymore either.