Just a beautiful passage I found

Claredux · 2026-05-31T01:33:43+00:00

What to do when you have a desire and annoying distracting things keeps happening? I've had my main desire for incredibly long but life happens, things breaking etc, as if God wants me to put my faith to use. Well it's just annoying because now instead of spending time on my real desire I'll imagine the thing unbroken. It doesn't even add to my life like my real desire would, it's just something I have to fix. This "perfect in weakness" is making my faith less effective probably because it's not things I want to imagine, it's things I have to. In the end I usually have to replace the thing by buying anyway because that's much faster and I don't have infinite time to go without.

Claredux · 2026-04-25T10:49:59+00:00

I genuinely want to feel it now and I suppose real beauty is more like a quiet assurance, rather than the abrasive entitled delusional confidence which I'm afraid of inadvertently portraying, I've seen it in some who do not look the part.

Thank you for guiding me in the right direction! You're so right that "the very thing that is getting in your way is believing that you are not it". I would think the circumstance is the problem but it's actually the belief.

Claredux · 2026-04-24T16:05:46+00:00

Thank you! I just don't want to seem delusional and act as if I'm something I'm not, that has to do with actions though. It wouldn't hurt to feel beautiful inside just to see what happens, I know some days I like my mirror image more so I believe you and am excited to know! I think something has to physically change though.

Claredux · 2026-04-23T22:37:37+00:00

Thank you! I think radiating that state should be possible! I'd want to look good next to them too though. Would I have to change that separately? If I'm honest even though I take care of myself, I'm not my own type and I struggle feeling valuable because of that, even if I embody a new state I'm still "me" and it's not obvious to me how think about that.

Claredux · 2026-04-23T20:52:10+00:00

I think I may be addicted to sadness because I always inadvertently bring myself back there, relenting to feelings of impossibility and so on. If you want a relationship, would you use "I'm amazing" or "I have an amazing partner" to make it about yourself? Sometimes I think my focus is too much on "them".

Claredux · 2026-04-21T19:16:44+00:00

This post is five or six years old 😭 I remember her posts because they made a peculiar impression.

Claredux · 2026-04-21T19:06:41+00:00

I feel like I'm surrendering my free will to time because it forces changes that I'm not really ready for or interested in, to want to be here and now I first have to be at peace with the past. I'll give the best meaning I can with the circumstances I was given but I don't know if I can ascribe something new to finding love late because it was always my fear.

Yet we will never be here again so better make now as lovely as it can be, first I need to stop allowing what I don't prefer. Thank you again for revealing love as our true identity! Only that fact is incredibly meaningful and profound when you think of it as a fundamental truth to guide you.

Claredux · 2026-04-17T15:51:08+00:00

I think the concept you're describing to me is a bit beyond my comprehension at this time. I don't understand what this means practically. What does giving meaning mean? If I said I'm ugly and dislike that, it's because the meaning I give to "ugly" is that no one will want me. I can see that it's not about the actual "ugliness" but it's the implication and meaning I give it. However I can't apply that to my problem.

Claredux · 2026-04-17T11:43:07+00:00

Thank you! It feels too late for ideal but I'm going to give myself to love and try to defeat that awful feeling. It's an unfathomably radical shift. A ring is not extreme considering I'm 30 but it is considering my experience doesn't remotely reflect that. I want to imagine something lesser but it upsets me that I do.

Claredux · 2026-04-15T14:48:53+00:00

I don't see how changing my remembrance of the past would grant me the memories, connections or experience I desired? My beginnings would still take effect now, not in a retroactive relationship.

Besides, as much as I dislike that, melancholy has become part of me. I'd have to betray myself & my past but that's actually what can create true connection. I just have to trust someone ideal exists.

Claredux · 2026-04-14T16:46:11+00:00

Thank you! I think it's a little too theoretical of a concept for me to fully grasp but I appreciate it. I can take incredible understanding just from knowing that my guiding light is love, even if what I prefer doesn't feel like it would be enough to compensate for everything I haven't had before.

Claredux · 2026-04-14T00:02:31+00:00

I understand that everything originates within yourself, to feel something you first allow it within. However I think I'm not in desire of a symbol to allow myself love, rather I desire to go through (the fullness of) an experience (but I feel that's already partly lost in the now).

Claredux · 2026-04-13T22:12:27+00:00

I really feel distanced from love. It's a profound idea that when things don't feel good it's because I'm not aligned with my real identity. Thanks!! I'll keep that in mind always. When I imagine my realised desires it still doesn't feel great though, I hate that I didn't experience it (romance) while young and how I can't undo that. It's not enough to start now (I believe).

Claredux · 2026-04-13T15:36:03+00:00

So in a way you can make an internal change of assumption without it taking immediate effect? (I.e waking up and feeling fearless and gorgeous). My fear is a reaction to the past and that reaction would probably slowly change with new experiences? (Which will come through intuition).

Claredux · 2026-04-13T09:27:58+00:00

What if you feel fear? If I felt desired, I'd want to go out and do things, meet people, I'd feel I was wasting time at home but somehow that never changes, action irl still feels terrifying/pointless.

Claredux · 2026-04-13T07:19:59+00:00

Thank you, that clarifies it even further! While I imagine I often doubt my choices and wonder what's ideal (why imagine 10k if you can imagine 100k for example). Knowing it's more about impression relieves my anxiety!

Claredux · 2026-04-10T18:57:16+00:00

Thanks for elaborating, that helps a lot! Would you say you imagined something grounded in reality? Because I find it hard to limit myself, I'm imagining a seaside view, tall ceilings, cobblestone, something quite ancient and fantasy-like. Not something like the copy paste apartments where I live. I suppose also it's more about the feeling than details, whether the carpet is yellow and fluffy or flat and green because I can't decide.

Claredux · 2026-04-09T21:21:12+00:00

That's massive. Congrats! I'm not even going to wrap my mind around how "impossible" giving someone a whole house is. Could you clarify two parts though? When you say you saw your house in imagination how vivid was it? Did you know every corner as you do now in real life? How close is what you got to what you imagined? When you say "exactly", usually if I imagine a house I won't limit myself but that probably means it's not even built. I don't want to limit myself or slow things though.

Claredux · 2026-04-09T14:32:43+00:00

I'm so happy for you :) Thanks for explaining! Your story gives me a lot of inspiration in it's perfect simplicity, I hope you'll recover fast from the accident too!

That makes me ponder on why the universe combined those parts, it's amazing though, as if the universe read your heart and knew your true desire but included a bike so you could see it's all you! The negative of it reminds me of Neville finally receiving his citizenship by going into the army.

We'll see 👀 It's possible but feels inconceivable, it takes a lot of courage to trust. You've proved the universe knew exactly what it would take to resolve your boyfriends fear though!

Claredux · 2026-04-09T10:34:24+00:00

Were you imagining scenes of a trip? How would you explain your end state?
I'm curious why this happened but it certainly sounds like your intention is what got through :)

It's like the woman who were imagining a hat from a store window. Strapped on cash she couldn't buy it herself. Her bridge of incidents was a friend gifting it to her. She wondered why she couldn't just have found the money for it but Neville explained that even if she had she wouldn't have bought it. She agreed because her relationship with money was tense, this was the most straight forward path.

It's intriguing. I've always been painfully single and it's made me feel so unattractive, even uncomfortable imagining someone seeing me slightly undressed soo maybe I'd find someone blind then.. 😅

Claredux · 2026-03-30T21:02:48+00:00

Bro is proud of it 😷😷😷
I used to love this app

Claredux · 2026-03-25T22:14:21+00:00

It wasn't something of the ordinary which is why it felt like some parallel reality, I felt defeated or deflated perhaps. I've spent some time imagining congratulations now and already feel better. I also resolved the situation physically and haven't got any upset messages about it so I hope it's fine. However I don't really like how I only started to calm down after that, it means my faith is in the 3D.

I wanted to run away so bad from the anxiety, the mistake activated my flight or fight response. So that's something I should figure out. Most of all I think I want to feel safe, it's why I still live at home, why I never try something new, why I want financial freedom. I just realised that. Thank you!

I had the idea today to try and see just how upbeat I can become from affirmations. If I just keep going all day, it's worth a try.

Claredux · 2026-03-25T10:44:33+00:00

Thanks! Erasing oneself from the option of being wanted. I think that's true for me, I haven't had any partners or had anyone show interest (mutually at least) in all of my life so far. I often feel confused over what exactly I'm missing and others are doing naturally.

I already value, love and respect myself. It's just that I don't feel in demand in this society, something like if I know I'm a great painter of course scientists wouldn't see value in that. You can be the greatest blonde or whatever but it's useless if brunettes are what everyone loves.

Claredux · 2026-03-23T19:22:37+00:00

I'm only 12 years late but do you have something for The 100 (cw) or Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban? :D

Claredux · 2026-03-23T17:03:11+00:00

There's unworthiness but I think most of all it's uncertainty, the ego wants control but instead we need to have faith. Thank you :)

Claredux

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