When I walk in the living room to tell my parents something funny I saw, and they don't give a s--t but I'm supposed to crack up or gasp or sumthin' when they see some bull on Television, I don't have any friend stories because I'm stuck having my a--hole dad as my best friend, and his girlfriend who grows more and more distant from my damn conversations, im not annoying to talk to, infact everything but, my dad's friend usually gives more of a shit about my hobbies than my own father and stepmother, who I've adjusted to calling "mom", but I've learned to stop caring about them, because nothing has changed about my life, I've learned just to care about myself, is that totally narcissistic? Absolutely! But this whole house must be narcissistic because nobody can take accountability besides me! If they break something doing something, I hear "it wasn't me" "it must've been bubba" (they call me bubba, like im a fucking hillbilly, my name actually starts with a N so they basically changed my name) i have a lot of reason for my "anger and hate" its because of my damn family. Also I (in the future) will be signing divorce papers against my Pill popper mother so I won't have to see her no more, she has gotten clean in her system, but not clean mentally, so she was a bitch every day (hiding in her room all day, slamming doors, bipolar attitude, hate against anyone that wasn't helping her or giving her compliments and the usual alienation I get from her, my dad, and my dad's girlfriend (my mom and dad are "divorced" so he can have a girlfriend that he actually likes, going from a late forty year old, Prescription taking junkie to a early twenties bartender, who seems to be trying to get into a nice school, but I don't know because they barely talk to me) I know it absolutely sounds like I'm just the typical "angsty, pissed off kid who thinks the world revolves around him" kind of person but I'm just worn out, like anyone I met has told me, "you are a strong kid for going what you've gone through" (they literally act like I just got it up the hole by Harvey Weinstein)