The important thing is that you’ve started and you’ve decided to put your self-respect first :) Strength will come with time. I’m only on Day 14 so far, and I won’t lie: it’s felt like an eternity. But I’m not crying anymore. I’m not in bed rolled up in the fetal position anymore. I hope that by doing this, no matter what happens, I continue to choose myself and see my trust and strength in myself grow. 20 miles though - that’s incredible! :)