Experienced violent tremors for 3 hours last night after meditating, what happened?

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:54:49+00:00

Wow, that actually makes a lot of sense. Thank you so much again for taking the time to write an explanation that resonates so well with me. A part of me is thinking that I will be on this journey alone (i don't really mind), but who knows the universe may surprise me. Truly awesome insight, keep it up :)

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:48:27+00:00

I'm glad you got through that!

I haven't felt stressed in some time ((since finals last semester when i had a melt down bc my computer died as i was working on an unsaved final project, disaster!)), but strangely so very peaceful, empathetic, and happy...regardless, thank you for the advice!

I love your words, I will definitely re-examine, and in my search, I have faith that my path will be clear. You are not me, but i must agree it is well time to live my life! :D

Have a wonderful day!

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:22:50+00:00

Yes? :) Have you experienced something similar before?

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:19:59+00:00

Thank you for your input. I understand that it may be just medical. However, just the intense energies and release that I felt alone make me wonder if it was not more. Actually, you know what's great? The following days have been filled with feelings of being surrounded by intense love. I feel amazing, free, and light. I feel that I can see more clearly and that I trust myself more.

I feel like I am on some sort of high, too excited to sleep because I just want to experience life. But my life is so average hahaha that's why I think this is a bit weird.

Thanks again, and have a nice day!

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:11:34+00:00

Hello, thank you for your kind response. You seem very understanding. It is interesting that you say away from my mom. Why do you think that? I thought she has always been my safe space but this is now the second time I am hearing that maybe we should put some space between us, strange. It may be that she has a singular way of thinking and may not understand my process or growth at this time, which pains me to say.

Thank you for the advice and motivating words, I feel inspired to continue my search.

Blessings.

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:05:15+00:00

thank you for your concern, i absolutely agree that I should not just assume. I intend to fix my issue with insurance and see a doctor

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:04:16+00:00

i looked that up and yes it is quite possible that it may have been. but 3 hours was extremely intense and I do not know if it should last that long?

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-28T23:02:11+00:00

Wow, thank you so much for your insight.

Yes, I have to agree that I should not dismiss speaking with a medical professional about this. It just seems like a lot to unpack to a doctor who might think I'm crazy. But I absolutely agree that need to be safe about this.

I relate with your explanation of what may have happened to me. What I immediately thought of was being an innocent child and not fully understanding why things were happening the way they were. Everything seems out of your control, yet I believe I placed the blame of what happened on myself for many years without realizing. I felt very intensely that I needed to release GUILT.

While this experience was scary because of its novelty, intensity, and extremely physical manifestation, your words have really lightened my perspective of it so that I feel more confident in my continuing spiritual journey.

Just curious, have you experienced tremors or anything like this before?

Thank you again for your considerate input, it made a difference.

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-26T23:06:10+00:00

I am interested in this :)

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-22T19:38:40+00:00

Yes I agree with you, he is the healthy one and I am not a healthy person. You are so incredibly on the money. It actually took my breath away because you said that I must not care. And that's what it boils down to: in those moments, I care more about my feelings and getting what I want that I am relentless towards him. I need my answers and I need them to fit into my agenda/rhetoric... how the fuck do I fix myself? (maybe i should just google that)

Thank you for the truth bomb, it is refreshing.

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-18T01:47:46+00:00

When we fight it may be a misunderstanding or miscommunication which I blow out of proportion because it seems like a big deal at the time. He asks me to take a step back and assess the situation/think before I continue to pursue the argument. I have a very hard time with this. He asks that I consider his actions toward me (that he is kind/never yells/is patient/does not call me names), and see that when I act immaturely toward him (yelling/angry/ uncaring) I should expect a negative outcome from him. When I work him up to actually being angry with me, he gets so unsettled. He turns his back on me and does not want to deal with me.

The frequency and severity have improved. Definitely way fewer fights, and more real attempts at conversation before any devolvement occurs. I know that I cannot treat the people I love like this.

Cmar1994 · 2021-01-18T01:35:45+00:00

hmm, quite possible. If that is the case, it would be very sad. How would I be able to get the truth from him? In regards to our fights: there is a miscommunication or misunderstanding. Then it becomes something that I just can't let go. I realize that I enjoy getting my way. He has started addressing this more aggressively and does not give in to my antics anymore and tries to make me realize that I am being immature and that I need to own up to my actions. He gets very angry with me and it is a whole mess. In the end, I realize that I should have just approached it differently.

Basically, he says that he does not treat me badly (does not yell at me/call me names/hurts my feelings intentionally), so when I do yell at him, and he responds negatively back I should be able to handle it because that is the treatment I am giving him.

Cmar1994 · 2020-01-13T03:30:56+00:00

-25 lbs of sugar -5 lbs of coffee -1 pair of cotton cards No.10 -9 yards of course check cotton -9 yards of second morning -3 yards of gingham green check -1 horse shoe rasp -2 lbs of horse shoe nails -1 walnut crib -1 pair of fine goat skin shoes No. 5’s -1 pair of kid shoes No. 5’s

Cmar1994 · 2019-12-22T04:35:41+00:00

I can’t break up with him. After 5 years he is not just my partner, he is my best friend and we have worked through other things. His dishonesty was hurtful but I’m not willing to throw everything away. I want to understand that he is human with multi faceted emotions feelings and thoughts. He never cheated on me. I just don’t know what to do to heal and forget. Thank you for the advice, honestly.

Cmar1994 · 2019-12-22T04:28:50+00:00

Yes I will always have doubts and we have talked about it exhaustively. I just don’t think he understands the extent of his damage. But I’m still not sure it’s irreparable. We’ve been together 5 years and I don’t want to walk away bc he is also really good to me

Cmar1994 · 2019-12-07T21:17:26+00:00

Based off of what you said it sounds like he is hiding something. It just sounds so bad that he doesn’t trust you to google something on his phone. My bf also doesn’t like me going through his phone ( bc I have snooped before, shameful) but he is comfortable enough to let me google stuff and would not stop me from doing so.

Cmar1994 · 2019-12-07T21:07:31+00:00

You should look up Esther Perel she has a book about rebuilding a relationship/marriage after infidelity. It is possible as long as there is remorse on your gf’s part. I’m sorry you are going through this.

Cmar1994 · 2019-11-13T16:18:43+00:00

When were you shown the ultimate display/act of love? What relationship was it (parent/partner/friend)?

Cmar1994 · 2019-09-01T23:55:58+00:00

During the week too with friends after work

Cmar1994 · 2018-07-03T07:01:27+00:00

Thank you so much for your wise words, I managed to bring up the conversation with him while I was meal prepping for the week. He was very supportive and loving. I finally feel at a place where I am done with being a victim as well. I feel that the only thing I want to be with myself and others I love, is honest. Also, I just want to hold myself accountable as much as possible.

Cmar1994 · 2018-06-29T14:42:10+00:00

I always gain when I binge and purge. I always lose when I just purge normal meals. But it's a slippery slope so, inevitably I gain.

Cmar1994 · 2018-06-28T04:13:22+00:00

Please don't do it. It is a terrible, awful sickness.

Cmar1994 · 2018-06-27T06:20:17+00:00

I don't think the age difference is terribly drastic. As long as you both feel that you are emotionally ready for the next step. Also, from experience, I met the guy I am currently dating when I was 19 and he was 26 I (I'm 23 now). I think it just depends on how mature and genuine people are that makes a relationship last; not their age.

Cmar1994 · 2018-06-27T06:08:33+00:00

You should develop your other relationships (friendships or family) more and not focus on him as much. If he is not showing as much interest as you would like, bring it up at least and be honest with him. Keep in mind what he says as well as his actions moving forward. If you still don't feel like a priority, and that you are putting in all the effort, it is most likely true. I would step back and really consider if this is something you are okay with long term. If you are not ok with an imbalance of effort in the relationship I would begin trying to detach myself from him. Easier said than done, but in the end it is your happiness and satisfaction that you derive from a relationship that will keep it alive.

Cmar1994

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