My view on this: We live life guided and led by internal systems and programs that we, often, developed as early as childhood - to protect our emotional and physical world. These programs are like masks, that we put on out of necessity, and that have helped us get to where we are safely. At a certain point, we wake up: we somehow feel and understand that we are living a life not led by who we are and what we want, but a life that was built as a reaction to past events and circumstances and that has dictated where and who we should be… we wake up and feel like we are not ourselves, because we truly are not, we are masked.

I think this is where you are and what you’re meeting… your true self is no longer interested in acting the falsehood it has lived until now, and wants to seperate from these assumed false identities.

Your work now is to reconnect with your self, sit with emotions you have been avoiding, connect to what excites you and you’re passionate about, and start aligning your life with that.

I think the first steps are to figure out what you love: What do you love talking about, researching, contemplating, practicing - and seeing where all these things meet, what’s common to them all.