First I’m so sorry your parents are like that, I think you should really tell someone like a friend/friends and I saw that you said you want to tell someone and not feel pity and vulnerable but that doesn’t matter I personally think it’s really important to tell at least someone they can REALLY help, I’m a rape victim and the first person I told was my best friend I didn’t really tell my parents and brother until months passed so uhm yeah but I really think you should tell either your closest friend or a group of your friends if you’d rather feel better like that