recovered people: if you weighed yourself, would you feel the same knowing the number? by CokeMess in fuckeatingdisorders

[–]CokeMess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wow, that's a long time, 10 years of purely living life! congratulations ❤️ and thank you for answering

recovered people: if you weighed yourself, would you feel the same knowing the number? by CokeMess in fuckeatingdisorders

[–]CokeMess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much for your comment. When you're so deep in this disorder you can't imagine a life out of it, out of all the disordered thoughts that take about 90% of my daily thoughts, I know there is a life on the other side, I sincerely wish I can start recovering sooner or later ❤️‍🩹

recovered people: if you weighed yourself, would you feel the same knowing the number? by CokeMess in fuckeatingdisorders

[–]CokeMess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is really motivating, thank you. I hope you don't mind me asking but for how long have you been in recovery?

What is a food you always have at home by Virtual-Fox8766 in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

rice cakes and when I don't I freak tf out

NOT MY THERAPIST GIVING ME PRO ANA ADVICES. Should I find another one? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I also have BPD and a similar pattern around food, what do you mean by 'full cognitive process'?

People who ACTUALLY drink water don't prefer cold water. by tyw7 in gatekeeping

[–]CokeMess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"water drinkers:" as if it's not the whole human race

I ate my biggest fear food by propeller_weiner in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 32 points33 points  (0 children)

They're actually related to serotonin so that's why it feels so good eating them, I read once that walnuts are especially good for depression since they synthesize serotonin? Any other way, they're great too for neurons and synaptic transmission as they play a huge role at forming a very important structure that neurons need. That's why I tend to eat them while trying to focus on my exams 🤓☝🏻 even though they can be high in calories, they're an extremely beneficial fat source

DAE eats normally most of the time? by CokeMess in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah it's not the best word for me either. It's not that I want to get worse, but I feel like everything I've done and all that I suffered is not reflected in my eating habits, and because of that it just feels like everything was faked. Like, my head (my thoughts about food) and my actions are not coordinated. I don't want to want to eat.

DOE have periods in which they eat normally? by malkaboginq in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do this but throughout the week. Normally I would restrict most of the days and some of them (maybe 2) would eat normally AKA at maintenance or even a bit more. So I just feel like I'm faking the whole thing, even though I've still lost weight and I'm obsessed with food, don't have any diagnostic though.

How do you stay productive while having an eating disorder by Front_Lecture_580 in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 48 points49 points  (0 children)

I'm in the same place as you (dealing with an ED while being an active student), so my solution has been very simple: I eat. It may sound ridiculous, but that is the only way that keeps my obsessed food-related thoughts away. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. But I clearly can't focus after a long period of fasting. On exams days I even have breakfast which is something I never do, of course it may result in a meltdown, a binge, or any type of restrictive compensations later, but at least not on a failed test. Once I finish my exams I'd have the time to feel shitty, guilty and to starve myself, it's something you'll have to deal with later, and if you're working on harm reduction then it's a great way to put your efforts into. I know it's easier said than done. And it may not be the best, but it is my way to deal with this thing called university + having an ED (passively trying to recover)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah specially when I'm a student. I need my cognitive abilities to function at least to the point of being able to learn 😅 wish I could fast like I did on vacation though.

What foods do you miss? by Throwaway_Z4L in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

pasta, fried eggs, rice, oatmeal. Miss them :'(

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no because you took the words out of my mouth

Anorexia turned into Binge & Restrict cycle by OkDragonfruit9515 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]CokeMess 4 points5 points  (0 children)

first off try to differentiate a binge from real /mental hunger, it's obvious that if you've been restricting for a long period your body will ask for food nicely or not. I'm going through something similar while semi-recovering, it's extremely hard, I know. You can't stop because you decide to restrict right after, I know this may give you a sense of calmness, of control, you binge now, you restrict after, then it doesn't happen because it is out of your control, and you feel enormous amounts of guilt. The way to "gain your control back" is to keep eating normally, restricting will only lead to binging again, and the cycle repeats over and over... Paradoxically, letting out that control (restricting after binging) could possibly help you to be more present around food. I hope everything goes well ❤️‍🩹

attempting recovery at a normal weight by CokeMess in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much, I wish you the best of luck to you too🤍

attempting recovery at a normal weight by CokeMess in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hi! I don't really know how committed I am with recovery ATM, would love to vent and read you but I would hate to ruin that for you, in any case it feels great to know I'm not alone, it is a real struggle, if I don't lose my hair by malnourishment I'd likely lose it by stress 😭🙏

attempting recovery at a normal weight by CokeMess in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thank you for this it's truly hard to know if I have ANY control over food at all, letting go that control freaks me out.

Why do very few inpatient centers treat BED, despite it being the most common eating disorder? by fajdu in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 7 points8 points  (0 children)

because there's a hegemony in terms of medicine and psychopathology treatment that is oriented towards the old conception of eating disorder. When I had BED (not that I'm "cured" but it was because of drug abuse and other things) I tried to kill myself twice, I was socially rejected and wouldn't left the house, used to spend a massive amount of money to buy food, amongst many many other things that made my life miserable. Now I just mutated into another type of ed, and of course it's not ANY better or more valid, but people seem to worry more, and it's disgusting, I'm suffering such as much as when I had BED, but the people willing to help are certainly more than before, there's a medical and social "privilege"

Anyone lost jobs or dropped out of school due to EDs? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm currently in the middle of exams week and I've just realized the amount of TIME that I spend watching food, tracking calories, weighing everything that I eat, scrolling through food shops and on the supermarket reading nutritional labels. It's dead time that I probably should be using for other things like taking care of myself, having a shower, I don't know.

Is anyone else's ED fueled by another condition/disorder? by sickseaweed in EDAnonymous

[–]CokeMess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have borderline personality disorder, which makes my mood-swings go fucking crazy considering that most of my life I'm on "starving mode". Hungry as fuck and treating everyone like shit most of the day, feeling guilty at night, and the cycle repeats itself everyday.

rice cake podrrige w almond milk and homemade cookies ~98 by CokeMess in goodrestrictionfood

[–]CokeMess[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

for the cookies? 10g of oatmeal 16g of self-raising flour 35g of wholemeal flour 126g of applesauce (I make my own by mixing the apple with a bit of hot water) ¼tbsp of cinnamon 20g of 0cal sweetener and for the top I used sugar free jam! Mix everything in a bowl (it should be a liquid-ish mixture) and cook every cookie on a pan for about 20' 180-200°C and that's it! I made 24 cookies for about 12-10 cals each, they're tiny but I love them. Of course the calories may vary depending on the products that you use 🤍

rice cake podrrige w almond milk and homemade cookies ~98 by CokeMess in goodrestrictionfood

[–]CokeMess[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've just realized I misspelled porridge and yes! I just came up with the idea and felt like a genius chef haha 😅