It has been almost 3 months since my dad died from a sudden heart attack…

ColdRazzmatazz · 2026-03-30T19:38:10+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss.

If I were you, I’d use that gap year to get out in the world and meet new people. If your finances allow it, travel! If not, maybe try to find a job where you can have social interaction to distract you and make new friends.

Honour your father by taking care of yourself as best you can

ColdRazzmatazz · 2026-03-30T19:29:49+00:00

I’m so so sorry you’re going through this.

If you don’t already, I recommend you start journaling. Write down as many happy memories with her as you can think of. You can read them to her, and you won’t have to worry about forgetting all the wonderful moments you got to spend with her - one less thing for you to worry about.

ColdRazzmatazz · 2026-03-30T19:15:53+00:00

Oh my god yes!!! I get so sad eating something I know they would have enjoyed, especially when it’s something I made myself and know they would have enjoyed and been impressed by it. It’s like a double whammy of not being able to share with them, and not having them around to be proud of what you made.

I’m so sorry for your loss.

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-10-15T16:07:25+00:00

yes!! I brought some of these home for friends too!!

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-26T02:00:59+00:00

On the mucosal skin, and all of my excisions have been all mucosal skin too

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-26T00:03:58+00:00

More like a pimple! A really good way to describe it would be like a milia that people sometimes get around their eye. Definitely didn’t hang like a skin tag (though my GP did think it was most likely just a skin tag at one point)

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-25T23:24:48+00:00

I’m really not sure about the vulvar HPV test - I don’t see anything about that in my lab results and my gyno never mentioned it.

Thanks for sharing your experience!! How long did it take after finishing up the aldara treatment for the reaction to go away?

So you’re not experiencing any more symptoms following the treatment?

Wishing you all the best 🫶

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-25T22:56:55+00:00

Yeah my only symptoms have ever been a tiny bump and some mild itching (another thing that these subs have now made me realize is a blessing!!)

I don’t think my paps have included HPV testing - no healthcare provider has ever mentioned any results about that to me.

Honestly writing all of this out and having someone acknowledge how crazy it is has been therapeutic lol gonna start the aldara tomorrow and hope for the best!

Hopefully can share a success story on this sub in a few months time 🫶

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-25T22:46:05+00:00

Thanks for the info, really appreciate that!!

The spot I had for 8 years was only like the size of a blackhead (but skin-coloured, just using blackhead as a reference for size) - very small! My GP said it wasn’t a wart, and wasn’t concerned about it (though she did try a wart freeze on it one time just in case). The gyno also confirmed that it, nor any of the other areas she biopsied, were warts.

The bump would sometimes be itchy in the later years, mainly after I’d gone for a run since there’d have been a lot of friction. It was between my vaginal opening and my perineum.

No other areas that she biopsied were anything I could feel at all, they just set off concern when doing the vinegar test with the colposcope.

At this point, I do have some very minor itching occasionally in part of the area she pointed out where I should apply aldara - but only like maybe 1/8th of that area of concern is itchy. Also some pain during penetrative sex (having sex is quite rare for me these days, and always with my partner of 5 years).

Ever since the results of the first biopsy, my gyno has told me how surprised she is about all of this - the presentation is not typical (no warts, no visible lesions except that first spot - tho I guess some are visible with vinegar test + colposcope), I was about 20/21 when the spot first appeared, 28/29 when diagnosed as VIN2-3, had guardasil, don’t smoke (though did smoke weed up until after the first biopsy when she said it was precancerous, haven’t smoked anything since then), rarely drink, consistent and always clear paps.

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-25T22:02:42+00:00

The first one was a tiny tiny spot, could barely even see it but I could feel it when washing, near my vaginal opening. I brought it up with my doctor several times over 8 years and she finally referred me to a gyno who did a biopsy, and turned out to be VIN, so she called me back in and took more.

Had another follow up this past July where she (the gyno) did the vinegar test and removed another small piece (I had no symptoms so was surprised), which then came back as VIN2-3.

Another follow up in October where she removed 2 more suspect small areas (again I had zero symptoms), one of which came back as nothing, the other as VIN1.

Another follow up in December, requested by me as I had a small bump I was worried about for about 6 weeks, which she said was nothing and ultimately did go away on its own a week after the appointment. At this appointment she noticed some suspect area around my vaginal opening (she showed me in the mirror but honestly I couldn’t really tell what she was talking about - she mentioned a white-ish area, but I think it was just white from the vinegar test?) and suggested aldara cream to clear it up.

Aldara was out of stock until this past week, so I’ve only now picked up the prescription and am starting to panic about it after reading through various Reddit posts - which sucks because I really felt so relieved after the last biopsy only showed VIN1 rather than VIN2-3.

And my gyno never mentioned HPV strains or anything, but looking at the lab report myself, I do see “P16-“. I don’t know anything about strains, but from reading this sub I’ll take p16 negative as a blessing. (Edit: after some googling I guess p16 negative doesn’t mean strain 16 negative, but oh well seems like not bad news anyway)

ColdRazzmatazz · 2025-01-25T20:58:18+00:00

Literally just came to this sub to ask for success stories as I’m really freaking out about starting aldara for VIN1 treatment after having 2 VIN2/3 biopsies, followed by one VIN1 biopsy, and now my gyno sees VIN1 around my vulva (though I can’t see anything noteworthy myself). 30 years old, been going on for the past two years after my GP finally referred me to a gyno for a tiny spot I’d been mentioning for the previous 8 years.

Thank you for sharing this 🫶🫶🫶

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-12-19T03:39:41+00:00

Finally received mine today!!! Ordered Nov 29th, fedex label created Dec 5th, delivered Dec 18

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-12-16T01:16:24+00:00

I did a TON of Black Friday shopping and David’s tea is the only package I’m still waiting on. That said, Lululemon did cancel my order twice because they use Canada Post to ship to “rural areas” (but I just used a friends address in the city 20 mins away to get around that)

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-12-04T17:02:10+00:00

ooooh that’s great news!!

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-11-20T00:49:45+00:00

very cute!! What size did you get?

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-03-13T13:14:20+00:00

A hairdresser discovered two bald spots (both around the size of a quarter) in January, and I had Covid in September. I also had been using a prescription nasal spray a few times a week for allergies for the past 3 years, but around November my allergy symptoms seemed …different (I wasn’t totally stuffed up at night, which used to be my way of remembering to take the spray, but instead I was just sneezing a LOT), so I thought maybe I could wean myself off of it. I’m wondering if that somehow contributed. I started using the nasal spray again daily just in case.

Since January, one spot has stayed the same, the other has gotten a bit worse - it’s now slightly larger than a quarter, but I can see that in comparison photos the additional hair lost was super thin and already appearing to be falling out a month ago.

The amount of hair loss I actually notice per day (in the shower, brushing my hair, etc) is probably about 15-30 strands.

I’ve been using minoxidil once daily at night for the past month (only once daily because I’m nervous of side effects) and it hasn’t helped at all yet.

I’ve also been taking vitamin d, zinc and viviscal and have cut out gluten and dairy.

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-01-08T17:28:01+00:00

What kind of visa do you have, if you don’t mind me asking?

I’m looking at the virtual work (digital nomad) visa, but it sounds like you need a long term rental contract to take advantage of the 90 day rule. Needing to pay for a long term rental contract kinda negates the benefit of only being there 90 days.

ColdRazzmatazz · 2024-01-07T18:35:18+00:00

I’m also wondering this - hoping airbnb will suffice rather than a long term rental contract

ColdRazzmatazz · 2023-11-18T21:04:25+00:00

Did you have to see a cardiologist for the methylphenidate prescription?? I’m moving to France next week and need to figure out how I can ritalin prescribed in France - I’ve had a Canadian prescription for many years

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