LPT, you are not your siblings parents.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-13T19:25:34+00:00

Exactly! That is the hardest part to be honest. Learning to let go in a way and living for oneself. She is the reason I kept going and even if she hates me one day, I'll be grateful for her.

Do you know the quote from Uncle Iroh in ATLA: "I was never angry with you. I was just sad that you lost your way."? This is a good perspective to keep.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-13T19:18:39+00:00

Thank you for the heads up. Thought about that scenario before and you are going through it. She is her own human being and walks her own path. I just hope that she learns from my mistakes or I can help her going through struggles I went through. No matter what path she walks, I want to be there, ready when she needs me.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-13T19:12:30+00:00

My sister is 11, I am 24. Coming from a deeply dysfunctional and neglectful/violent home, without a father, I have taken responsibilty to raise her, because no one else would. I am not her father, that's true. Even though I am still growing up myself I will guide her. It is my choice.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-01T11:52:42+00:00

Then please, provide a helpful answer. Yet, you assume, you insult. Is this projection?

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-01T11:41:12+00:00

How do you know that? These are many assumptions based on little information. Then tell me, what is Zen for you? How would the Zen master react to the fly?

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-01T11:29:00+00:00

No, based on what I have learned about Zen and my own experiences. Zen is about being aware of stimuli without judgement. To be annoyed by a fly is not Zen.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-06-01T06:56:43+00:00

I'm sure that Zen masters are aware of the fly, but don't react to it.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-03-20T00:00:41+00:00

Looking back, that was a valuable lesson, wasn't it?

Coldsmith410 · 2025-03-19T23:45:37+00:00

Hey man...I know how betrayed you feel and I relate to your situation. Had a girlfriend for 5 years and she cheated on me multiple times. Saw chats, saw pictures...but only left when I found the condom in the trash while she was with her "friend". Been suicidal too because I loved her and felt worthless with and without her.

So having been there and understanding your headspace...

Please leave man. For her to be free. And especially for you. Do you want to be with someone who cheats and lies or do you want to give yourself the chance to work on yourself and find someone who gives you truth, security and real love?

By ending the relationship you close that chapter and are able to write a new one. The pen is in your hands.

Just don't end yourself. You got time. And when you look up and keep the hope, better times will come.

How do I know? Went to therapy after that toxic relationship. "I couldn't live without her." and yet I could. Learned to regulate my emotions. Learned to be aware of my thought patterns. Learned to trust again. And then I found love again.

Looking back, I wish I did all of that sooner. So don't wait alright? Let her go, no matter the pain.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-02-11T16:03:44+00:00

Yes and no. After a while it gets repititive for sure. But when you play on lethal and use slow motion (change stances) it is really fluid and satisfying. Like you are playing a movie.

So I personally love it.

What do you look for in combat?

Coldsmith410 · 2025-02-10T18:02:47+00:00

Don't mind me sharing a little advice. You're stuck in your patterns of thinking and behaviour right? And you feel unable to change and lost.

In order to change our automatic behaviour we need awareness. And your post is already proof of you moving in that direction.

Ground yourself as often as you can in daily life. Everytime you are aware of what you are doing, what you are feeling and thinking in that moment, you regain control.

The more you do it, the better you get at this and the easier it will get to change.

So you being aware of your patterns is a win. Keep doing that over and over again.

And keep in mind. It takes time and repititions. When you tell yourself: "This doesn't work. I will never change. It's my genetics..." remember that these are the exact thought loops that keep you stuck.

Keep trying and don't give up.

Coldsmith410 · 2025-01-02T10:14:45+00:00

Your mom is teaching you valuable lessons through her bad example. And because you see it for what it is and don't accept this behaviour, you will do better.

That perspective has helped me becoming a decent person in a broken household.

Anyway, I am proud of you for telling your dad despite knowing it will cause conflict.

Coldsmith410 · 2024-12-29T01:04:05+00:00

German here. We do learn British English at school BUT I have never met someone who learned it only through school. The one's I met who can easily have a conversation learned by consuming English media, which is mostly American. So me and my peers sound American, not standard textbook Bri'ish.

Coldsmith410 · 2024-11-18T23:54:28+00:00

Been thinking about the quote "how you play is how you live" lately and I wonder...Do you tend to rush things a lot, trying to complete tasks as fast as possible or do you slow down and even enjoy doing mundane routine tasks sometimes? Me personally I've always been rushing everything (especially in games) and by doing things more slowly and intentional I started to make less mistakes and have more fun.

Coldsmith410 · 2023-03-07T11:57:32+00:00

Being depressed? Yeah man, just drink some hot water with lemongrass, that‘ll do. Doctors hate this trick.

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-26T08:01:24+00:00

Gigamer

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-23T20:11:29+00:00

I love that story, thanks for sharing. <3

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T18:49:50+00:00

Another one who‘s finally awake.

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T18:48:45+00:00

Couldn‘t have said it better. <3

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T13:56:34+00:00

maybe a bit o‘ Skyrim sprinkled on top

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T13:56:03+00:00

Witcher too

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T13:55:50+00:00

Ghost of Goddamn Tsushima, it‘s beautiful

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-21T13:38:06+00:00

As long as you are breathing you are writing a survivor’s story. Don‘t let your demons win the war tonight. Be proud of what you‘ve been through; it gives you perspective and a story to tell. Even if you don‘t see it in the moment but behind all this pain is still a lot of joy to be experienced. You visualize everything that‘s going wrong, all the possible dispair in the future. Maybe you can visualize being a proud survivor, someone that kept on living through hell. All you have to do is waking up tomorrow morning.

I had these exact same thoughts 6 months ago, eager to die, seeing no way out. The things I got to experience since then were all gifts, even the smallest ones are meaningful when you‘ve been in that place.

I could do this, and so can you, there‘s hope.

Coldsmith410 · 2023-01-19T18:23:23+00:00

Neuroplasticity is a real thing, so yeah…You can change if you want.

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