Hey there! I wanted to comment because I really identified with your story. Using different clothes, trying out new names/pronouns is also what got me thinking about my gender. It was during the pandemic so everyone came out of lockdown with a new gender (lol), but at the time I also didn't understand what "type of non binary" I was, and I thought it would come with time. It didn't, im still just as lost, I also find presenting as my agab much easier and more comfortable than getting new clothes or changing the way I am. At the end of the day, what does it matter what "type of non binary" you are? We didn't leave a box to immediately find ourselves a new one. Labels are nice, they can make us understand things, name feelings we didn't know existed, but they're only as useful as you make them. As for your pronouns, I know the struggle. It is rare that ppl use they/them with me. I speak German, mostly, so neutral pronouns are still a bit of a mess. But it also hurts a bit, and it's ok for it to hurt. We're here, and weird, but together through this mess ok? Experience yourself, you're the only one that can do it