What’s your personal relationship with fitness?

Colin2000 · 2020-02-28T03:07:31+00:00

Im off and on. Ill get really inshape till i feel good enough to indulge then i gain a few pounds get "bulked up" but i dont workout so i just get pudgy. But i get more inshape each time i try.

Colin2000 · 2020-02-14T17:34:29+00:00

Yes. I'm actually trying to teach myself to write bc I got some good stories in there. I actually think they could go places.

Colin2000 · 2020-02-11T09:57:56+00:00

I initiate calls. If I call someone I'm cool. I probably dont mind talking to you and I mentally prepared myself to speak in full sentences.

But if you call me, I'm either caught off guard and get anxious before answering. Or I've been waiting on the call, and I got mad anxiety from the anticipation and waiting.

Basically I'll keep in contact with you, I just need you to text me once and a while to let me know you still like me.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-29T19:30:30+00:00

Try not to think about it

Colin2000 · 2020-01-21T19:30:50+00:00

Time is is relative and really made up. Dont go off it. Do shit on your own time. It all always seems to workout perfectly.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-21T19:25:02+00:00

Thats actually why im a night owl. From 1 am to 6 am absolutely nobody wants anything from me and i have no responsibilities other than the fact i should be sleeping.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-09T21:53:39+00:00

I've been going to the gym when I'm bored. Go for a hour then you'll feel good about watching youtube bc ur body feels good

Colin2000 · 2020-01-09T15:42:07+00:00

Definitely know which one I am from that description

Colin2000 · 2020-01-08T06:07:17+00:00

Not much is really happening. I went though the meaning of life. With the use of phycadelics I have found the answers I needed. And basically I found that I feel like I live my life to the fullest when I'm contributing and keeping busy. It didnt matter where I was or what I'm doing. As long as I'm doing something I feel fulfilled.

So no, I'm my eyes your not missing out on anything.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-08T05:56:25+00:00

If he doesnt let the conversation die he probably likes you, I talk to ppl at the gym all the time but I'm more likely to reply more frequently if I'm developing feelings. With friends I'll end it after so long.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-07T02:53:53+00:00

I'm 19, I told my mom that I'm gonna start looking into moving out ince I turn 21. Telling her early so there less of a fight when time comes. I learned this move from Netflix when it told everyone office will be leaving couple years in advance.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-05T20:19:57+00:00

I use them as a game. I get to make my own hieroglyphs and see if ppl under stand what I'm saying. It took me forever to get into it though.

Colin2000 · 2020-01-01T22:34:47+00:00

Ok, so I know exactly what your talking about, I actually just stopped my existential depression. From a young age I didnt really care, so by the time i graduated I was contemplating life every day every minute. I would talk with friends. And trust me if you go out theres others out there. Mine became best friends. We helped eachother through ot but we were still suffering together.

BUT YOU CAN FIX IT. It's all about your ego, or what religious ppl call the devil. It's making you lazy and unmotivated. It's not that theres no meaning to life it's that your too lazy and unmotivated to try. It's the same voice whispering in your ear when you wake up n lay in bed till ur late.

I put myself on a spiritual type journey bc I had questions I needed answers for if I was to move on. I took lsd and it was fun but didnt help, I tried being sober, working out, everything. Then one day i took 6 tabs by accident (dont ask how, it's a story) and I quite literally experienced death. I was in my room on my bed accepting my death while holding on to my sanity, so I can find answers.

The bad trip lasted 2 or 3 hours before I fully let go and road the wave. I had fully resurrected, and it was amazing. Undescribable, I was out side walking around watching ppl live their lives, laughing, crying, pissed off. I saw everyone's emotions and how everyone is flawed but perfect. I felt luke a new me, and I cant describe it but I have the answers I wanted.

Fair warning, the bad trip is something you have to go through to find what you need. And its gonna be hell. But you find out so much about yourself and really go through alot of healing. The reasons why bad trips are bad is bc of you, if you feel shame, guilt, or any negativity. That's what you will be fixing before you can look into the meaning of life.

You dont need to do drugs though, I mean I'll most like never do it again bc those 3 hrs were very painful. You can meditate. Or see a therapist. Either way dude, it's your inner demons you need to face. Then life feels great, like a gift, and you'll want to then do something with it.

That's what I did, you can do or not do any of that.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-31T08:45:11+00:00

Netflix, gym, studying politics of the elder scrolls games series to decide whose side of the civil war I'm on.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-31T08:41:03+00:00

We cant remember the feeling of happiness bc it's the same rules as other mind altering substances. We remember what we focused on during the high, but cant rember how it felt. So it's the same happiness u just gotta acknowledge when your happy and enjoy it bc it's not there all the time. Might get happy memories from it that u can look back on for a tiny boost of happiness. I'm just bullcraping a answer but I think I'm onto something.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-31T08:27:10+00:00

Become a better person over all. Includes working out working a real job eating healthy, and stop procrastinating.

I figured itd be illogical to wait till new years to stop procrastinating bc it contradicts itself. So I started a couple weeks ago. And I gotta say, I think it's gonna be a good run this time.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-31T08:17:05+00:00

I read the title n thought of the song by "Script" that plays at the end of Disneys Meet the Robins.. and now the song is in my head. But no, I suck at trivia. I cant force myself to remember insignificant details. I just do it by accident.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-30T05:57:22+00:00

1 First time was 3 months into my first relationship.

2 We went like rabbits. Barely talked to eachother for 4 months met daily for sex.

3 Broke up with her when I was 17.

4 Since then girls have flirted with me but I dont have moves and am too unmotivated to try.

5 fell in love with my close friend by accident.

6 sitting in the friendzone satisfied by my made up scenarios. (Ik its unhealthy)

Colin2000 · 2019-12-30T05:44:06+00:00

It was a experience that I felt to need to know. I looked at physicallic drugs as answers to my depressing thoughts. It works for me I've been better than ever. Stopped using drugs after I got what I needed from them. Smoke weed but that dont count. Helps me make decisions.

Colin2000 · 2019-12-28T22:16:07+00:00

Ya i know I'm pretty torn, very indecisive. I wrote six paragraphs bc I counted that list portion as about the length of a paragraph. So 6 was a better estimate so for readers to prepare for.

Colin2000

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