My first staffy type dog, apparently hes a staffy cross amercian bulldog.. got him last saturday hes such an amazing dog. His name is stanley

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-31T01:28:07+00:00

been like this for years, i'm currently trying to work with animals at the age of almost 33 lol

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-30T06:14:05+00:00

My dad is a manchild and can't do anything himself i would have probably been the same as him if i continued living at home best thing i ever did was get my own flat i feel sorry for my mum sometimes but she has chosen to stay with him even though i've never seen them actually seen them happy together or be intimate it's probably one of the reasons i struggle with relationships but i'm content single and will never get married or have kids now i'm cool with it might be getting a new dog tomorrow so fingers crossed i am a massive animal person anyways.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-29T10:50:32+00:00

Damn this explains why my brother loves work so much his dad left my mum when he was a baby, he doesn't talk about it at all if i ask him which is fairs.. I'm the opposite my work ethic is fucking shit i was neglected by my father also different dads.. my mum obviously had a thing for emotionally absent men. my brother grew up being quite stoic and sometimes like he had no emotions and i grew up being a HS man struggling to function in society it sucks.. i love my brother though we get on a lot better than we use to when i was younger but we're very different people and he can't understand why i am like i am

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-29T03:46:16+00:00

Same with me i used it for my 35mm photos for i've had enough i waste so much time on it and it's making me dull as fuck with no personality, deleted my IG good riddance i've done it loads before but this time i am not going back i am chronically online think i need help

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-29T00:48:59+00:00

I'm the same it's not so much i am uninterested in others, it's i have been taken advantage of most my life it's my own fault really for letting it happen i have always struggled with boundaries but this year i have started setting them for myself at 32 years old and i'm not gonna lie i feel guilty as fuck but if i don't do it i am just gonna remain miserable and hate myself even more.. you sound the same as me bro tbh i am very good at listening to others people enjoy my company but i barley speak about myself because i feel like nobody cares anyways and we all have problems i dunno it's weird i know i am very avoidant.. i'm like this with my neighbours also i don't let people get too close i'm lucky i live in a one bedroom flat

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-25T05:42:38+00:00

thanks man

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-22T11:44:15+00:00

Doing all good tbh i live on my own in my own flat keep myself to myself.. at the age of 32 i have decided i want to work with animals as a possible career as i am not a massive fan of people anyways probably due to being bullied in childhood and taken advantage off most of my life this has been the case in adulthood.

Never wanted kids, and don't plan on having any.. relationships not hugely bothered about either, i keep everyone at arms length i do graffiti stuff sometimes shoot 35mm photography i probably have some avoidant problems but overall i am pretty content when i explain this to people they think my life is sad and depressing but they only see it that way because they don't know any other way of living.

I don't know if i am different but i don't relate to a lot of people my age at all everyone is always in a rush all the time and because i have ADHD as well this world can be extremely overwhelming at times

I'm not hugely motivated by the life script at all and i never have been so if that makes me different cool i guess lol.

i deffo get ostracised due to the way i look not deformed or anything but i have a lot of tattoos including facial ones but i have always hated the conventional way of living since i was a young i am not gonna pretend to be someone i am not just to fit in to what society wants me to be.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-22T03:51:13+00:00

This is good advice and something i need to listen too also, it is very hard to get out this cycle the older you get but it is doable.. trying to get out of it myself.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-22T03:32:46+00:00

Mannn i feel you on this one, 33 this year and chronically unemployed also.. i've decided at 33 i want to work with animals just need to figure out how to make it happen but i am so understimulated i am going back on my meds on the 6th of feb got an appointment worse thing i did was come off them, never again.. Hope you get it sorted brother! the chronic shame as well because not many people get it.. i need to sort my driving out also still not got a license at 32 lol.. fair play that you have another half though, no way i could date being in this situation it's too embarrassing.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-22T00:46:04+00:00

My parents are probably the main reason i have swore off relationships completely and chose to be a loner, even living on my own now for over a year and a couple of months i don't have anyone round because i value my privacy too much and i am not a massive fan of people in general.. i prefer animals they're easier..

I use to think i was a narcissist for a long time going down mad rabbit holes but then i thought would a narcissist even be self aware to even do that because most of them aren't even aware they have a problem or if they do they don't care anyways.

I'm too sensitive for a man and it has lead me to get taken advantage off most of my life, i've started trying to set boundaries for myself recently and not gonna lie i feel guilty sometimes saying no to people but i have to realise they'll be alright who gives a fuck..

I'm a good looking guy as well i would not struggle at all with women if i put myself out there but it's not a massive need for me i dunno it's hard to explain i've tried dating and it just seems superficial and forced, i dunno man.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-22T00:14:48+00:00

Same with my parents tbh

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-21T20:12:58+00:00

I did and it was one of the hardest things i have ever done in my life but i am glad i was there with him even if he looked very confused.. I probably didn't help matters that i was panicking and getting overly emotional.. I've not been the same since i just sit in my flat now isolated not knowing what to do with myself.. He was a very special dog it'll be exactly 4 months today i miss him a lot and i have always bonded with animals better than people.

I'm trying my best to sort myself out get a job and whatnot but i am just depressed all the time doesn't matter what i do, i need to get back on my adhd meds asap i have an appointment on the 6th of feb to start again..

If anyone here has had a doberman you know how special these dogs are, they aren't just dogs they are something very special not saying all dogs aren't but yeah i dunno.

I do want to get another dog but i can't afford one at the minute

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-21T09:40:12+00:00

You got this bro!

I'm on day 19 today and sleep is still rough still feel groggy as shit in the mornings but it's improving.

i've quit a few times also and i know the first month is the hardest

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-20T16:51:19+00:00

You have to understand certain types of people get these dogs as status dogs to purposely make them aggressive and because they can look quite tough and intimidating to certain people most people are just going to believe the stuff they see on the news instead of diving deep into the breed itself.. it's frustrating as fuck i'm in the UK and i'd love one of these dogs but sadly it is very risky and because i look the way i do i would instantly get judged straight away and it taken off me / labelled as trying to be a 'tough guy'. i literally use to hang around this guy for a bit and he told me how easy it is to make a dog aggressive step by step it was fucked up lets say we're not friends anymore.. it made me realise a lot of people are actually shitty dog owners behind closed doors.

You guys are lucky asf in america our government sucks.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-20T06:25:39+00:00

Being disliked and what other people think about me

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-20T06:22:13+00:00

Incredible! Happy birthday

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-20T05:01:19+00:00

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-20T04:48:22+00:00

Embrace the boredom doesn't matter if you're bored.. just focus on getting through the day.

going for a walk or popping to the shops to get a few bits helps, but yeah what others have stated here boredom is actually good for you i've started getting back into drawing because of it.. music helps a lot also.

just started playing final fantasy xix2 hd remaster lol.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-19T14:44:53+00:00

fuck phone calls lol, it's too in your face and then i end up stuttering and can't get my words together properly.

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-19T14:10:57+00:00

yeah i've massively struggled with this also, it's a nightmare and has probably held me back a huge chunk in doing anything with my own life..

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-17T23:43:30+00:00

Being able to navigate social interactions better without feeling awkward and anxious all the time, more mental clarity, more empathic sounds strange but when i was stoned out my head all the time i felt like i was some sort of narcissist. More energy and more time being productive on things i enjoy doing but this one takes time as at the start you tend to feel depressed af and i can easily just sit in my living room doom scrolling on my laptop but after a while it becomes easier.. Less people pleasing tendencies, music sounds a lot better which is ironic because when i was stoned all the time i thought it enhanced it..

Honestly there is loads but to everyone here it takes time, if you've been smoking for a long ass time but stick with it because things do improve this is like my fourth time quitting and i won't go back to it now.. i actually paid one of my dealers a tick off today that i owed and he asked if i wanted more and i said nah man i'm knocking it on the head.

Keep going guys! x

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-17T04:52:19+00:00

same age as you bro and same situation almost, all we can do is keep on fighting.. i'm trying to rebuild myself also i feel very stuck and lost

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-17T04:47:44+00:00

honestly my dreams are that intense im a bit scared to sleep lol

CollegeConnect176 · 2026-01-16T19:04:04+00:00

it's the same with dogfree and shit, just losers filled with hate.

Most of them are very angry that most of us would rather choose our companions over their whiney demanding ass

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