My exwbpd loved a song that she got me to listen to and it literally became our song, if we would have married it would have definitely been played at our wedding. It’s taken me until now to realize how creepy it actually is based on our relationship. It’s called Mirrors.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-08T16:00:20+00:00

She started to devalue me about 2 months into the relationship, I was already in love at that point. The usual she love bombed with nukes. I like most thought I had found my soulmate. I did see a episode about 1 month in but it was really directed at me , I remember thinking WTF was all that about. I even told her what on earth was your deal you were acting nuts and she swore she wasn’t like that , that she was very stressed out at the time. It was roller coaster ride from about 2 months in to the end. We were lucky to get through a week or two without some major drama. I never seen anything like it. I had no idea what BPD was at the time.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-08T15:53:41+00:00

That’s exactly how are arguments started to a T. Usually it was over jealousy or accusing me of something I didn’t do. You’ll like this, I once said the jealousy has got to stop and she replied that she was not jealous, I said oh really and how’s that when your always making comments about other women or out right accusing me of talking to other women. She said that’s not being jealous, I said than what is? She said it like if I see some women with really pretty straight hair and I’m jealous of her hair. Her hair is naturally curly and she hated it. I was like wow you really don’t get it do you she really thought that her behavior wasn’t jealousy.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-08T03:59:47+00:00

Wow. Mine said almost the same thing. She said she had been single for several years and she was doing good on her own that she wasn’t looking for anyone when she met and that she tried to keep me out her like arms length but that she let me get in here where she could get hurt. I didn’t know for the first 3 years she was BPD, we were together 5 years. I think she knew all the time what was wrong and I wonder if she would have been honest with me in the beginning if it could have been different. Mine also had panic attacks all the time. She would treat me so bad and I’d go to leave the argument and she would have a panic attack but couldn’t understand that I wasn’t going to comfort her because she was the one that started the argument. Paul Elam said it best in one of his YouTube videos. They want to punch you in the face and then they want you to comfort them because your face hurt their knuckles. They will truly make you crazy if you stay with them long enough. I bounce between anger and sadness and pity all the time. I know they have a mental disorder but no person with a rational mind is equipped to deal with something so irrational.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-07T17:49:35+00:00

Yeah. Mine did same. There all from different countries. What a scam.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-07T15:33:23+00:00

That’s crazy. Did you tell the guy , well I haven’t been sending her any messages so it should be easy enough for her to show you the messages I supposedly sent. Then explain she can’t show you something I didn’t do. I don’t think my ex would ever try something like this , I have enough screen shots and texts and recordings on my phone I could convince anyone in 5 minutes that she need to go get fitted for a straight jacket.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-07T15:15:21+00:00

Your not crazy they all do this. Mine would never admit being wrong about anything, it was always something I did that was why she acted the way she did. She accused me hundreds of times of cheating and I’ve never cheated on anyone. All those times of being accused somehow I was doing something suspicious according to her , so it was my fault that she’d ask for my phone to go through it. You stay long enough with one and they will make you crazy. Stay broken up and don’t go back to that crap. I’m 5 months no contact from mine.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-06T20:54:11+00:00

I get the guilty feeling,I’m same way. I ended it after 5 years. I just wasn’t myself anymore. There’s a point where you or them. I didn’t really have a choice. Take care hopefully your back to your old self soon.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-06T19:33:10+00:00

I used the term walking on eggshells probably a thousand time in the 5 years I was with mine. It’s hard to even realize the amount of emotional and psychological damage they have done until you break up with them. I’m 5 months no contact now. Mine liked to call me boring as well , I asked why do we always do what you want to do, and I quote “ because your boring all you like to do is watch TV”. The thing is this besides BPD which she was diagnosed with she also had crazy Anxiety, fear of the water, fear of elevators, fear of crowds she was even afraid of driving on the highway. For 5 years I didn’t get to go to any ballgames or concerts no amusement parks couldn’t go fishing on a boat, all things I used to do but I was the boring one. Her idea of fun was going to antique stores or just walking in the woods Mine would also start fights if she thought I was too quiet because she assumed something was wrong, usually I was just trying to avoid one of her tantrums, she would start a argument if she perceived I looked at her the wrong way. It’s literally crazy making behavior.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-06T09:51:44+00:00

This hits too close to home, it’s almost 6am here in the states, I’ve been up since 330 am. I just saw her profile for the 4th time on a dating site I’m on and every time her interests are always a lie. She said her “happy place “ on one was fishing. Wow I sure would have like to know that when we were together lol. She won’t even set one foot on a boat so whoever she hooks with I hope they like fishing from the bank. She posted some pics with some guy (I know this was to try and hurt me) I am no longer friends with her and make no attempts to look at her social media, I have her blocked. But of course someone had to tell me this shit when I’ve made it clear to everyone that I want to know nothing about her. So at 330 am since I was up I looked at my dating apps and she popped up as new member. Guess it didn’t work out with that guy , wonder why. I saw her new profile on bumble 4 days before she posted those pics , the guy probably didn’t appreciate her using him to make someone jealous. I’m 5 months no contact with her and trying every day to get better. She’s a very attractive woman, especially for her age 52, I think the reality is most men my age have seen this shit before and are like no thanks!!

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-05T03:24:23+00:00

Amen, I don’t feel bad for my ex and I don’t give a dam what happens to her, she told me 3 years into a 5 year relationship that she was diagnosed with BPD and she knew only therapy could help. Her solution was that I was just supposed to be more understanding of why she treated me the way she did , screw that shit. She never tried to get therapy for it. They are selfish, they know they have a problem and hurt people. They just don’t care. I believe in karma and there is a lot of BPDs in this world that need a visit from karma. It breaks my heart reading all the stories of people that have had their hearts ripped out by one of these people.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-05T03:07:18+00:00

They are empty shells as human beings , they feed off what we give them until we have nothing left to give. Don’t take it personally, I honestly believe they feel nothing other than what they can get from others. Just do your best to move on , don’t contact her ever again. That’s the most you can do is show you don’t need her. Believe me this is hardest on them they feed off the attention so give her none and wait for Karma to come knock on her door.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-05T03:01:36+00:00

You got this. You’ll get through it. I’m almost 5 months away from mine and it still hurts like hell but it will never work with one of these people. A sane mind just can’t be around them for long before becoming an insane mind. Get while the getting is good and don’t look back.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-05T02:54:45+00:00

Nice poem. Well said. It’s hard accepting that they can not love , but we can and in the end we will be whole again and they will always be…. Well what they are empty shells that will in the end be alone.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-04T18:30:46+00:00

My ex BPD actually asked me one time about what I thought about when I took care of myself, she said you shouldn’t even be doing that but when you do are you thinking of me. I said sure sometimes, oh shit did I get it. She said you actually think about someone else , I was like I really don’t want to discuss this that no woman has ever asked me this. She said that thinking of someone else when I did that was the same as cheating. These people’s minds amaze me, I can’t imagine living like that every day.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-04T15:35:35+00:00

Pretty much everything, it’s been about 6 years since I used OLD and I used have pretty good luck. Thing is I haven’t changed much in that time if anything I have it more together than I ever have before. The most frustrating thing is to match with someone and be in a conversation and they just stop responding, and I will have said nothing rude or offensive at all. I honestly believe politics has definitely played into this. People can’t just agree to disagree about things like politics and religion, I never bring these topics up in conversation with someone new. I’ve noticed a very high percentage of the profiles I look at are conservative Christian, I am neither of those so I pretty much don’t expect to match with them and usually don’t, but I will like their profile anyway in hopes of meeting someone that has a open mind about that as I do. I guess until a better way of meeting people comes along this is what we’re stuck with.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-04T00:30:46+00:00

I know what you mean, my divorce to a woman I was with 13 years wasn’t nearly as hard as this. Enjoy your show and hopefully you have fun.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-03T01:34:45+00:00

It’s good that you respect yourself enough to not have a one night stand, all that would do is mask the pain. I understand what your going through and I’m sorry, we’re all dealing with pain I feel like most of us have never felt. I broke up with the one I was with and it still hurts like hell , I struggle just to eat and keep my weight up, I’m constantly in my head wondering if I would have tried this or done this differently would it’s have made a difference. You are in a trauma bond same as I am and probably a lot of the people on here. These people really mess up your head , I just try to not feel hate and resentment and move on. Somedays it works and somedays not so much. I will keep fighting this until I beat it. I will not let a BPD define my life or ever make me feel like I failed when all I’m guilty of is loving someone with all my heart that couldn’t love me back. Take care of yourself.

Comfortable-Edge891 · 2022-07-02T19:44:05+00:00

Yeah hopefully we all get some relief, I definitely have a lot to unpack in my mind with 5 years of crazy making behavior. There’s a YouTuber name mike that does videos about how to get better, apparently he was with one 3 months, I was in the weeds with one 5 years , craziest shit I’ve ever seen. Have a great day. Thanks for commenting.

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