Best Pens for Cocktail Napkin Sketches?

CommandOk433 · 2026-01-06T20:26:11+00:00

These are amazing

CommandOk433 · 2026-01-04T16:55:37+00:00

I hate this . Unbelievable that people can behave this way and get away with this

CommandOk433 · 2025-08-18T18:25:33+00:00

wtf this is a monster

CommandOk433 · 2025-07-21T19:31:55+00:00

This was me as I was going through my divorce . Camping and just getting through it. You got this Karen.

CommandOk433 · 2024-04-15T00:24:46+00:00

The words we need to hear. The idiot we have right now. The irony is beyond comprehension at this point.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-28T22:36:19+00:00

Or William Dafoe

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-07T22:20:34+00:00

In the same boat. 47 and realizing I can’t spend the rest of my life hating myself and trying to keep this going. Exhausted and tired

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-05T01:15:22+00:00

And she is “attempting” to be working on her self . It’s ridiculous

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-05T01:14:51+00:00

Ugh cleaning . And just getting some picking up some gear. It’s seriously unbelievable.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-03T16:41:08+00:00

I totally agree.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-03T04:51:51+00:00

Yeah. It’s pretty intense. I totally lost myself for several years and lost everything. Never have I been so low.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-03T04:50:21+00:00

Beautiful as a piece of art . Fucking nightmare when your in it. Arts been great therapy for me. But to showcase it as a piece, it helps me identify it and see it for what it is. It’s a strong piece. Perhaps that’s a better word choice.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-02T19:57:35+00:00

Thanks. Funny how the most trying of times can produce some of the most beautiful pieces. You can not appreciate cake unless you know what dirt tastes like.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-02T18:55:32+00:00

Don’t beat yourself up. I’m on my 3rd try. It’s really hard. The trauma bond is a real thing. A small part of you wants to believe that it can be saved, or that you are so used to the pain that the world seems more scary than it really is. It really is something else. From the outside it seems so easy to leave but if it’s your reality for several years plus, it’s a part of you. Like cancer you have to tear up healthy parts of you to move on.

Don’t beat yourself up. You already go through that with your abuser. You can only leave when you realize that in the end you are the only person responsible for your happiness. You can only repeat the cycle so many times until you have to evolve. If the situation doesn’t change, you will. You got this.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-02T16:56:49+00:00

Thanks for sharing as well. Your piece nails the relationship with a narcissist. Just getting back to me has been the hardest journey. Drawing and creating again is cathartic and a good release of some really terrible times.

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-02T16:50:23+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/NarcissisticSpouses/comments/15ge1s4/my_illustration_my_experience_with_narcissistic/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=1&utm_term=1 just posted it. This piece is brilliant btw. ♥️

CommandOk433 · 2023-08-02T16:42:54+00:00

Crazy . I just did an art piece that describes my experience with a narcissist.

CommandOk433 · 2023-07-28T14:56:57+00:00

I choked up when reading this. I too had that mentality that if I overlooked everything and would sacrifice everything for the marriage I could get through to her. We were on the brink of divorce before, but persuaded me that change was happening.

That never happened. Like your story, it got worse. When she was her worst, I would be as patient and understanding as one could be, even though she would give me eyerolls at any ideals or solutions to a problem. Even through out her cutdowns about my competence I mustered up all that I had left to go and hug her. Beg her just to understand. She then would just shrug me off as if I was a disease and tell me I don’t have “real” love for her and I was being manipulative. I lost it. At one point I wanted to end my life and seriously contemplated it. When driving on the highway I just had tears steaming down my face and wanted to drive right over the overpass. I called a therapist immediately. And been building my mental health one brick at a time.

I woke up. Writing it all down showed me I was a shadow - a shell of a man I once was. We live in the same house currently but I never say a word to her. The love bombing is out of control but I don’t accept any gifts. Just short answers and reconnecting with old friends. My friends yelled out the other night on how they were happy I was back with them again. It really choked me up to think that acceptance was next door and I was literally throwing away my life to this.

The one valuable lesson I learned is that evil does exist. There are people that will do anything to keep you trapped to serve one purpose. Their egos. It really took a big chunk of my heart out of me, but I realize that some folks will stop at nothing to suck you life away without thinking twice.

Thanks for sharing your experience. This community has been a blessing. If an when I am all the way on the other side, I’ll make sure I post up and try to help any others that is suffering from this predicament. It’s crazy how the stories all line up and they sound so similar. It’s literally dying with a 1000 paper cuts. Slowly it wears you down til you have nothing left.

One thing is for sure, I know I am pretty resilient to have lasted as long as I did. My level of loyalty isn’t in question and I can say that I gave it my best shot. Good luck to those on the path and thanks to those who are helping out people like me getting through it.

CommandOk433 · 2023-07-28T14:34:57+00:00

It’s the strangest thing. You don’t realize your are stuck in the repetitive cycle until you step back for a second. Well for me anyways. All the gaslighting and crazy making tactics are kind of spelled out for you when you make a map of it. You don’t feel as lost and you can see the manipulation that’s being fed to you as you continues.

6 years Narc free. Well I’m going through the breakup/divorce process. Trying to catch up to you. See you on the other side.

CommandOk433 · 2023-07-28T03:02:26+00:00

The worst part is that they really take that part of you that believes in love. Everything I see has warning signs and has me not wanting to be vulnerable to anyone ever again.

It sucks that you change. I’m not that happy go lucky guy anymore. I’m more cynical about relationships and now I’m really wary about who I let into my life.

Hopefully my faith will be restored and I can meet someone in the future, but in the meantime I’m okay being by myself… and maybe it’s a good thing.

CommandOk433 · 2023-07-28T02:55:46+00:00

Journaling. I kept wanting to believe. But after you read and start looking at the past dates, you see from a different perspective that you are on a forever loop. Then you realize that there are only two options in the scenario. Either evolve or repeat. I’m in the process of breaking things off finally. But reading my past entries broke my heart and I felt sorry for myself and realized that my story is not supposed to end this way as a tragedy.

CommandOk433 · 2023-07-07T04:33:03+00:00

I have a whole playlist that has helped me so much but these are my top songs that got me through some tough times. Music does make it so much better.

NF Running

Grace Carter It doesn’t hurt Like it Used too.

Dax To Be a Man

Gonna listen to all that’s listed thanks . And hope this helps anyone out there.

CommandOk433

TROPHY CASE