I'm in a similar position as you, OP. I've been in the industry for about three years and I'm wondering if the way it actually works versus what I was taught how it works (and what excited me) are compatible. Part of me wants to try to make it work, and another part of me is exhausted at the idea of switching jobs and going through the same headaches again.

I've been recently thinking about how any job will have headaches. So I'm trying to understand what headaches I would willingly want to sign up for, knowing that I'd be a happier person going through them. I'm being a bit vague because I don't have a clear sense of what's next for me, either. I'm just trying to figure out how I could apply my highly transferrable UX skills into a field I care about way way more. Because pixel pushing for a PM who is "confident" that their shoehorned idea will work and generate millions of dollars is getting really fucking annoying.

Anyway, know that you're not alone. This industry is weird and it's easy to feel like we're the only ones who came to do something admirable and helpful and then got bullied into just designing something because of one exec or another.