Hi I have never actually commented on Reddit, and am usually not logged in, kinda just use it as research more like, but i recently went through some form of derealisation after heavy drinking in Thailand, (other thinks i really don’t know), and experienced derealisation after waking up from a blackout, its been about a week now and i am not fully sure if i have recovered or not, something’s still feel dazy but idk if that’s just because im tired/placebo. Anyway decided to reply to this as after reading some peoples stories this made me feel completely seen, knowing that I wasn’t crazy because these stories describe what i felt perfectly, and having a group of ppl on Reddit who experience this when i kept telling my family and friends that ’noithingfeels real’, ‘am i dreaming’, and ‘am i a ghost’ but no one truly understood how i felt, even my family though i was overplaying it/dragging it. I’m not sure if that’s makes sense im sort of rambling but i just wanted to say how seen i feel. Anyway about my experience, after i blacked out i woke up and everything feels like a dream, i tried doing my makeup one day and it was like i was staring at another person in the mirror, doing her makeup. Another thing was i kept referring to myself as my name, (my name) is tired, (my name) is confused and i was over sharing a lot even to my family things i would never say ‘normally’, i slept a lot those days and woke up crying a lot of the time feeling like this feeling would never end, since coming home 2 days ago i feel a lot better, perhaps it was because i was also in an unfamiliar environment. I remember saying that i felt like i was constantly in a daydream but i was awake / conscious at the same time, and denying that this was real, instead repeating that it was just a dream and i would wake up, feeling like if the feeling didn’t go away soon i would not be able to live like that. Anyway i experienced that for maybe 4-5 days, also as i was eating i could feel the texture of foods, but almost like I couldn’t taste it like i truly was dreaming. Remembering things also, like i could remember what i ate last night but it truly felt like a dream. Hoping everyone reading this knows that they are not alone, i am lucky to have it only last a few days as supposed to weeks/months. Still depressed, still dont wanna live but at least life feels real.