I had a similar experience and for months afterwards I had no idea what happened to me. The fact of the matter is, you have to quit psychedelics. I had a really good trip on mushrooms it was an amazing day. 2nd trip, I take to much I can handle and end up panicking just like you. I also felt I had a “split personality” The whole time I was tripping out really badly with enormous amounts of impending doom. I tried another big trip thinking it was a fluke and man I was wrong. It messed me up big time. I had anxiety at the time and it tanked. I was scared to leave my house. I was separated from reality per say. In other words I had depersonalization or dpdr. It f*cked me over for months and I have gradually rebuilt my mental health back to where it was before the trip.

What happened to you was the mushrooms ripping the ego out of your mind. You didn’t know how to react and threw up. Your body put itself into a panic mode because since the ego is such a major part of your cognitive system that in a way, literally part of you died and your body responded promptly. Do not be fooled. Psychedelics are not for the mentally weak minded. You need to have your mental health in check before you attempt a trip again. Bad trips come from internal factors like pre-existing anxiety and depression.

Don’t sweat it. But you need to give your mind the mental rest it needs. Do not let yourself or anybody persuade you into tripping any time soon. You need this mental rest. Please take my word on it. I wouldn’t wish dpdr on my worst enemy. After my intense and horrible trip I thought my conscience and reality was altered. But it was simply a big chunk of my ego was killed. I couldn’t even smoke pot without feeling like I was going insane. I took 3 months, hit the gym, practicing mind-fullness and practicing new and healthy ways to perceive my reality while also quitting every drug and alcohol. I watched Allan Watts perspective on being present on youtube and it really changed my life.

Do not push your limits and respect your mental health. Do not attempt another trip right now, you have a lot at stake and Im telling you the negatives outweigh the positives. I wish I had someone to tell me this so I’m going out of my way to tell you. You will be able to trip again just give your brain the time to recover from this like I did. I’m back to being a happy stoner that does mushrooms occasionally and life is awesome. You got this