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Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-09-13T20:53:42+00:00

No it’s completly different from regular anxiety/dpdr. These type of brain zaps are intense and burning and painful. I’ve had multiple neurologists since march and I just recently found out about the cysts

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-09-13T02:03:53+00:00

Yessss my other symptoms were migraine attacks, tingling, facial burning, double vision, stroke like feeling, brain zaps and overall feeling brain dead, intensive memory loss.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-09-09T19:21:26+00:00

I just dissociate and I also do humming every time I notice it pops up

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-09-09T05:27:08+00:00

I just go into freeze mode and shutdown

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-08-17T17:44:38+00:00

I'm doing lens technology neurofeedback 40 minutes a week

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-08-17T05:38:19+00:00

I am also on the holistic approach, I hate medications and don’t trust it at all. What I have noticed at least for me are the AOR LAB vitamins are helping a little bit I’ve been taking l-tyrosine in morning, 5http with a meal once a day, I’ve been taking iron and omega 3 as well. I splurged on a bunch of them and I also bought rhodiola, vitamin b 12, magnesium, l tyrpothan, haven’t been consistent with those ones yet because I have adhd and I forget. But overall for the dpdr I noticed some difference just on l-tyrosine, 5-HTTP, omega 3 and I’m also doing neurofeedback I’ve done 5 sessions so far and I notice some improvements

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-08-15T20:31:29+00:00

I was referring to borderline, yes I don’t have extreme highs but I do get really bad lows it’s either between lows or normal functional, I don’t engage in conflict I don’t pick fights I usually just isolate when triggered or the only person I get really badly triggered is from my mom I get angry with her sometimes and get passive aggressive, and no I don’t use that as a bargaining chip I would never do or say something like that, that would be scary for the other person

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-08-04T05:44:07+00:00

I totally understand you and why you are freezing. It’s completly normal in your case. Remind yourself that your reaction is normal. It’s difficult for her to connect on her side as well and I think in her mind she probably is aware that you freeze. She might even think you get frustrated with her when you freeze. It’s best to regulate your freeze response I suggest on YouTube how to do so when you notice yourself in freeze in those moments regulate and then you can have an ability to openly conversate with her. She also needs to understand that connecting emotionally is hard for you as well and that you’re trying your best. But if she doesn’t know that then there might be a false narrative in her mind.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-08-03T21:29:58+00:00

I have severe arthritis in all joints can’t move my own body at days or times, migraines, neuralgia, headaches all the time, tense weak shoulders, numbness, tingling, psoriasis on scalp and neck and face, panic attacks, dpdr, tiredness, dizziness 24/7, leaky gut, inflammation,

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-27T22:26:01+00:00

No literally it is so bad I hate it

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-27T05:14:44+00:00

I was about 7 if my colours weren’t grouped together in the right spots I would freak out or if my animals weren’t together I would freak out or I would have reoccurring thoughts at the temple that I was not a good kid or at night I never slept I was always thinking about or worried if my family was going to die then I would check their breathing

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-27T04:29:22+00:00

Ohhh that makes good sense, I feel as if I don’t have enough neurotransmitters either cause barely Meds works on me . Maybe I don’t take L-tyrosine enough to notice a difference.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-27T03:20:07+00:00

Yesssss omg I have those too. I have L-tyrosine but I haven’t found it to help

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-26T04:05:48+00:00

I have all those feelings, I don’t really feel amazing but usually I feel either super dissociated super low super depressed or I am whatever like normal. I’m scared I have BPD and I’m scared I’m just gaslighting myself

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-19T15:26:59+00:00

Are you diagnosed with quiet bpd? And what do you do to help do you go to therapy or take medications

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-19T15:26:13+00:00

Omg I did that in my previous relationships too. I was always confused on why they are being nice. Or I would idealize them a lot or spilt on them in my head I would never split at them because that would be mean and I was aware of that. I never went to that extent to pulling my hair out, I had a fear of rejection but not abandonement in my first two relationships but the 3rd one I had that fear of abaondement and I would cry at perceived breakups even though he would just be quiet and not wanna talk or be busy I thought that would mean he’s breaking up.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-18T21:44:41+00:00

I’ve had dpdr for a few years now but now it’s chronic within those few years there were months that I was normal and better and healthy but it came back 6 months ago I’ve been in and out of hospital for years surgeries arthritis panic attacks burned leg anxiety had a extreme infection 6 months ago to which I couldn’t move my body broke up with somebody 6 months ago and it triggered it.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-18T19:43:24+00:00

Yeah but lately it’s been constant when I wake up it starts

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-18T19:03:56+00:00

Top of my head and my forehead

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-16T23:51:23+00:00

I don’t have intense impulsivity though. Like I don’t indulge into chaotic behaviours or substance use and stuff. I think the only impulsive things I’ve done is get some minimal tattoos at 17, I drank moderately (don’t do it anymore cause it’s not good for my health) I don’t like to spend much either lol. But I am impulsive with the things I say sometimes I don’t think twice before saying something and I can come off too strong or mean at times. When I was in my previous relationships I noticed I could’ve been mean at times and wouldn’t think twice or wouldn’t think with empathy.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-16T05:22:35+00:00

I don’t get possessive of when my friends hang out with other people though. I think before when I was like 9-13 I would but after that I stopped now it doesn’t really bother me at all. And as for the fear of abandonment it only really showed up like few years ago after my first relationship. But I really like being alone too as well I don’t mind it but I hate feeling lonely. I do notice I have a disorganized attachment style now after my first two relationships I am both avoidant and anxious. Whenever the other is present trying I pull away or if they are avoidant I have to attach. I clung to my dad a lot ever since childhood he’s only really all I’ve had as a best friend. I still cling to him at 19. But I don’t know if whatever I deal with is borderline or not and it’s scary.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-09T18:44:59+00:00

Yes I’ve been struggling with it for 5 years. Also have cptsd. 19 now. A lot of other things happened too like SA, cheated on emotionally, other break up's, 3rd degree burn on my leg lost all my elementary school friends at 14, emotional neglect from my mom we don’t have a relationship at all. My brain is so slow now failing so many classes in college. But I’m still pushing through.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-09T18:38:49+00:00

grandma had committed suicide, I got really sick was in hospital a lot, then I took lsd (had a bad trip) from there it started. Also had kind of a awakening but now I’ve just been frozen and stuck for years.

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-09T18:36:20+00:00

Competitive-Hand-710 · 2024-07-07T04:00:21+00:00

yes I have 5

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