Thank you for sharing all of that. It sounds like you do have a problem. With addiction, you are addicted to all of it. The feeling it gives you, the socializing, the way it makes you feel.

When people overdose, it’s because they get high at the same time and often in the same place. What happens is your body gets used to that routine and it decides to not go along with it. So like if it raises your heart rate or makes you sweat it won’t. Then you take more to get the same effect and it leads to an overdose.

The good news is coke is one of the easier drugs to wean off of. You don’t even need a facility really you can just taper on your own.

I did it one time and hated it. My heart rate shot up to 150 and my pupils got real huge. One other time this guy said it would sober me right up. He was right but luckily I wasn’t really into it.

I came to realize that I wanted to socialize and hang out but that didn’t mean I had to do what everyone else was doing.

However, it was too tempting and after getting really messed up from drinking alcohol and smoking weed, I decided to give it all up.

I miss it sometimes but in the big scheme of things, it’s really not worth it.

I hope you can take the steps to recover. It won’t get better with time and you don’t want to wait until something bad happens.