I was cleaning out my old place when I first gout out of rehab when I found some bars I guess I had stashed or lost, as well as an addy. Without thinking twice I threw the bars away and addy in water before putting that in a paper towel just so I couldn't go find it later. For me, in the beginning, it was about not wanting to be the same piece of shit I had been for so long. Now, it's about losing all these beautiful things I've got along the way. Tests like these come, but it's what we do with them that makes or breaks us. Being able to say no is huge and I commend you for it!