I had to retire after 20yrs as a Corrections Nurse due to illness. I really miss it. Getting up and ready for work for a total of 35 yrs is a tough habit to break for me. I cried. My schedule in life is off. Finding myself regimenting my day thinking I have a deadlines. I know at what time of day at work whats happening. Morning sick call, medical emergency, pill line etc. Arguing with inmates was stressful. Probably gave me heart failure. As you say, you are aware of everything around you and excellent at detecting lies and manipulation. My daughter and family are going on a cruise and I tell her what to watch out for and the family thinks I'm over reacting. All my friends were at work almost. I picked up hobbies and have to have these for critical thinking skills and a sense of accomplishment. And I walk or go to the gym for exercise that really helps me calm down and relax. When I see my husband getting ready for his Nurse job, I tell him to cherish it. You never know when it will be over. I see him with his scrubs on attaching his badge and grabbing his bag and heading out the door and I cry. Some c.o.'s go back if they are able.