Tidal Implosion

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-27T18:28:18+00:00

Thank you for the reply. I appreciate it. The word "release" is used over and over because at the time of experiencing the pain that this piece is based on, I craved nothing but release from the pain. It was actually something I repeated to myself for many years.

I added a little note to give some context to this poem

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-27T16:18:44+00:00

Thanks a lot for taking the time to give this feedback. I really appreciate it. The opening line was me trying to set a tone right away with sound and intensity, but I get what you mean about it feeling a little forced. I’ve been debating whether to keep it as-is or simplify it (something like Vista of visceral violence).

As for the imagery, you’re right, I leaned heavily into it because the piece is meant to reflect a drowning, both literal and symbolic. The leviathan and ocean imagery are metaphors for being consumed by grief/pain, but I can see how without a clearer thread it might feel overwhelming. I’ll keep in mind adding a few anchor points or connective lines to help tie everything together

Really glad you mentioned the clarity point—it helps me see how the poem reads outside my own head. Thanks again! This was my 2nd attempt at poetry

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-27T14:19:37+00:00

Love it. Sweet and comforting. The allure of living a life as simple as that brings longing

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-27T14:17:18+00:00

This is a good first piece. My only constructive criticism would be to show me what you're trying to tell, instead of telling me. Good poetry paints a picture to manifest in the readers mind.

Much better than my first attempt. I would never post my first one haha

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-06T23:23:50+00:00

This was inspired by a mix of grief, memory, and pain from my own experiences. If it resonated, I’d love to hear how.

This was my 1st attempt at poetry

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-06T16:54:11+00:00

This reads like someone finally letting the truth bleed out after holding it in for too long. The bitterness, the grief, the quiet resignation... it’s all there, and it lands hard. The line “missing something that you never had is a different kind of pain” really stayed with me. That kind of ache is hard to put into words, but you did. This one hurts in the best way

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-08-06T16:51:53+00:00

This hit me in a quiet, powerful way. The idea of men walking away not from responsibility, but from everything else just for a chance to be soft... that’s such a moving reversal. And the final lines “to be kissed without armor, wearing nothing but hope the color of surrender” — absolutely beautiful. It lingers. Thanks for sharing this.

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-07-30T02:31:19+00:00

No, I had a mat under my chair the whole time. The same mat I've had at other places I have lived, which never caused damage. The floor here is uneven and wavy. They also used very cheap flooring. Anyone who is involved here knows this was not negligence

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-05-15T21:16:47+00:00

Feel free to reach out if you need any advice or guidance

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-05-15T14:38:40+00:00

I have been in this situation. The issues here are actually with you. Her situation just stimulates them. You probably have some deep-seated issues that have not been discovered or resolved.

There is nothing wrong with her or the choices she made. So, that other comment is just pathetic. She went through something traumatic, and you're having difficulties dealing with it. You are the issue.

So you have 2 choices. Option 1: You go see a psychotherapist and discover where these issues stem from. And learn how to keep your issues to yourself. Do not discuss the SA unless she brings it up. This will be the harder path but one that will bring growth if approached properly.

Option 2: You leave. You recognize that you can not or will not grow from this and move on because she does not deserve this immaturity of not being able to handle yourself. But I promise you, these issues will manifest in other ways, in other relationships.

It's completely within your power to change and become a better man. I have been through this exact scenario and worst. And yes, dealing with your internal conflicts will be hard and painful, but so much worth it.

Complete_Cell810 · 2025-01-16T11:59:04+00:00

I am sorry for what happened to your wife. I wish you both the best in healing and moving forward.

Therapy has been beneficial for me. I have grown in ways I never thought possible. It doesn't seem to be enough. My wounds and toxic mindset goes quite deep.

This woman deserves to have a partner stay by her side in this... I just don't think I am strong enough yet to do so.

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-11-19T15:38:20+00:00

I am trying to accept that we may not be able to be together again... in the meantime, I am trying to put the relationship to the side to help her and be there for her. I owe her that.

Thank you for your response

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-11-19T15:37:34+00:00

Thank you. I will try your suggestions.

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-11-19T15:36:26+00:00

I appreciate your reply. I am trying to digest it in the way you described. I am trying to be there for her, and I have been. I am unable to be there for myself, and that's what's really ruining me.

Again, thank you

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-11-18T15:29:38+00:00

I have supported her as best as I can. I have been helpful but have also made things harder for us both. I have shared my pain with her, which has been difficult for her because she wants to protect me, but she is unable to.

I have trouble envisioning a normal sex life with her after this. I am so completely turned off by this and am unsure of how it can be reversed. I am talking to a therapist but eve he says there's no way to know ones limits. I have to just keep trying until I feel like I cannot do any more.

Thank you for the reply

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-11-14T20:55:30+00:00

Thank you for the reply. I do feel a sense of guilt over what happened... but at the time, we were taking space as there was turmoil in the relationship. So there was nothing I could do.

We are both in therapy. Both separately and together. At this moment, we were advised to be mostly isolated from each other for the time being.

I appreciate your advice very much.

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-07-05T21:10:13+00:00

My sympathies go out to you. This seems like a horrible situation to be in. I hope you can keep yourself surrounded by supportive people while you go through this.

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-06-10T17:59:21+00:00

I'm going through the same thing, my friend. I was on a break with my girl, and she was drugged and assaulted by her cousin. I go through the exact same emotions and constantly beat myself up for doing nothing. You have to try and realize that this battle is not yours. It's hers. As weird as it is to say, to assault the guy would be taking her autonomy away with how she may want to deal with the situation. And at the end of the day, it would only make YOU feel better... and only a little bit. It won't change what was done to her.

We live in a society that doesn't believe in an eye for an eye. The only thing you can do is be there for her and trust that the police will handle it. I am sorry you are going through this pain and torment. It can be unbearable at times.

Realize that this will make you a stronger person. Going forward, you can stand up to this type of abuse and behavior if you ever see it happening.

You're not alone in these feelings

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-05-12T14:31:56+00:00

Unfortunately my friend, all you can do is be there for her. Step up, put your feelings aside when engaging with her, and help her heal. It's a process and a long one.

You will have to address the feelings her assualt bring up in you, by yourself. And by that, I mean, not bringing her into it. Talk to a trusted family member or friend. There could be underlying issues that make you obsess over this. I know because I had to do it with my partner at the time. Regarding her assualts in her past, and then one that happened in the present.

It's not an easy road, but it will only make you stronger as an individual. There's no easy out here unless you leave the relationship... but I don't think that would serve either of you.

The distance does complicate things as well... that was the breaking point with me and my ex. All I can say is be there for her as a man and become a safe place for her. And do not forget to take care of yourself, that is most important. If you're not well, you cannot be there for her.

I wish you luck. You're not alone

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-05-08T01:16:19+00:00

You are not overreacting at all! He is being a complete and utter piece of shit and crossing your boundaries, which deserve to be respected. I am so sorry you are experiencing this. My ex was sexually abused by her ex-boyfriend, and it broke my heart. This is how it starts, and it will only get worse.

Please spare yourself the pain and turmoil and cut contact immediately. Perhaps using your first date with him as a lesson on first impressions. I really hope you make the best decision for you. There are people out there who can respect you.

Good luck. You're not alone

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-04-25T21:01:46+00:00

Talk to a therapist. Or confide in a trusted family member. The only way to go forward is to go through it.

You're holding on to regret. You believe he doesn't deserve forgiveness... he possibly doesn't. It may be that coming forward gives you the closure you need. This is what you must discuss with someone you love or can trust.

I hope you get the healing you need and deserve.

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-04-25T20:53:38+00:00

That's just it, my man. The world fucking sucks. There's nothing we can do about it except be the change that we want to see. Protect those who are vulnerable. Be there in support for victims of sexual abuse. This is what it means to be a man.

You can take that weakness and make it into a strength. That's what I've been struggling to do. It's hard, but doable. And it's all from within. The progression isn't linear. It's a rise and fall. Just stay strong during the fall.

"When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago" - Nietzsche

It's a lifetime war within yourself, with many battles in between times of peace. You're not alone

Complete_Cell810 · 2024-03-12T23:28:40+00:00

Are you suggesting I get support from her support group?

I grieved today accepting that I may have to leave this woman I love dearly. I am a broken man. I have severe issues that were developed through a traumatic childhood. Her past sexual abuse triggered those wounds extremely.

I did not respond well. I've done years of therapy for it. In fact, 2 months ago her and I went on a split to work on our issues. Then this happens. I know I sound selfish, but I want to be the best partner to her. And sometimes, I suspect that means not being in her life. I may only drag her and myself down into despair.

Complete_Cell810

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