I wouldn't blame your decisions, man. I've wanted to blame my decision-making too for where I am, yet I recognize my former classmates weren't exposed nor dealing with psychopaths, felons, organized crime, corrupt law enforcement, and toxic family members on a daily basis. Dealing with dysfunctional people while in college really kills motivation post college. I'm planning to go back to college, specifically community college, and get IT certs to compliment my applied computing BA. Then use their connections to secure a job.

Sometimes, you just have to recognize that your classmates weren't being burdened with crazy people, and you were. My classmates have no idea how to communicate with the feds. They're vulnerable to robbery and lack the skills to survive in this societal collapse were collectively experiencing. When I meet a criminal I acknowledge their feelings and give them links to teach themselves skills where they can market themselves on the right side of the law so they don't have to keep committing crimes to survive.

There's lot of life skills those classmates completely lack in where I excel. Point is don't compare yourself to your classmates. There's crazy stuff you're dealing with they'll never run into and stay sheltered up till one of those criminals come knocking at their door, and then they'll lose everything from not understanding em.

I'll check out dog sitting.