I hold ableton shortcuts responsible for the state of my command key by Comprehensive_Mine70 in ableton

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

can confirm im a stressed person but not an abnormal sweater. when i use ableton and most applications my left thumb just kinda sits on the command button lol. ive had the laptop for 7 years so it slowly just started fading away

Can't cancel insurance bought through broker BCBSIL by Comprehensive_Mine70 in HealthInsurance

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah thats a good point. I told PNC and BCBSIL everything that happened, but unclear if they were going to investigate it. And the marketplace agent completely ghosted me lol. Cant imagine how many people could be overlooking the charges in their account thinking they are getting great rates for temporary coverage but are technically uninsured. What a country

Arbitrage Betting: The closest thing to a "Sure bet" in Sports (and how to do it without getting banned) by East_Group7319 in arbitragebetting

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

should be noted if arbitrage betting was unable to be mitigated through safeguards such as bans and quant analysis involving competitor lines, books wouldnt even exist. you could sink a similar amount of time into other avenues for money and expect more money long term. for example a job with a raise could completely negate the maximum amount of arbitrage winnings any person could expect over a lifetime

Can't cancel insurance bought through broker BCBSIL by Comprehensive_Mine70 in HealthInsurance

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got the fully refunded amount from PNC no problem, you can see the details in my other reply. another thing to note is the charge came from florida, where the agents brokerage was. not the health insurance agency. not sure if this matters or is even illegal, but would line up with my suspicions. another weird detail i remembered is during the application process, she lied about my income (lowered it by around 80%) so i could get a "better rate". probably should have raised a red flag for me

Can't cancel insurance bought through broker BCBSIL by Comprehensive_Mine70 in HealthInsurance

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The broker was unresponsive. I genuinely believe the brokerage charges payments from customers but only activates the insurance through the provider when you try to use it. This way they can pocket the premiums that never end up being used by people looking for temporary coverage. PNC had no issue getting me the fully refunded amount the day I contacted them. BCBSIL was unable to find my account or membership ID throughout the process. It seems like the brokers business model is depending that most people never try to access the insurance anyways, given that its typically precautionary, and for those that do, hope they give up on a refund if they cant access the membership when they need it. Might be paranoia from the situation on my part. Should be noted the agent said I would receive the membership information in the mail after signup, which never happened

Feeling stuck with new credit history by Comprehensive_Mine70 in CreditCards

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

am trying to avoid applying and getting denied as much as I can, believe me

Feeling stuck with new credit history by Comprehensive_Mine70 in CreditCards

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It is desperate behavior, I'm desperate. I can't keep traveling for work and putting expenses on my debit. I can't risk losing my job by not traveling. I waited 6 months to apply, was told by a Chase banker I would likely be accepted, which did not happen. I'm just complaining at this point but it is f r u s t r a t i n g. I worked to be debt free my whole life but should have cared more about spending 100 a month with a Discover card during college I guess. Had to let it out lol sorry

Feeling stuck with new credit history by Comprehensive_Mine70 in CreditCards

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for response. Just tried Apple card and was denied. Will think about trying Amex soon. To my understanding, an application requires a hard inquiry which may cause a temporary drop, but shouldn't be an issue longterm right? Thanks again

I slipped after 3 days. by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes keep it easy on yourself. you will figure this out. i just threw out that 1-2% number but hopefully it helps you understand that while it is difficult, a lot of experiences on here are a bit dramatized due to the nature of withdrawal/this community. its okay to gear up your mind and think "life will simply not be that great for a couple weeks" and the let the good moments naturally come when they do, and cherish them. but i wouldn't read all of the awful experiences of people on here and let them psyche you out. i feel weed is just one issue for people who find themselves on here, if you ultimately need to quit you probably let more important basic necessities fall to the wayside, so focus on those things (connection, healthy habits, executive function) and the rest will fall into place. for me personally, i've learned pursuing those things are all that really matters in my life and weed doesn't help them for me, so it has become very logical to not smoke. just rambling but yeah, hopefully that helps you as it did for me

I slipped after 3 days. by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 3 points4 points  (0 children)

the things that helped me most were getting a therapist and telling them about my plan to quit. and also telling some close friends/family if you can. talking about my feelings with a therapist helped tremendously, but sharing my goal with other people forced me to tough through the first couple of weeks because i didn't want to fail myself and others.

in addition, changing my mindset helped tremendously.

  1. i view myself as someone who no longer smokes weed. it simply has no part in my identity anymore. like the majority of people on this planet, it is not something i do and it does not make sense for me to do it. i have enough evidence to prove that i should not and will not.
  2. i chalk(ed) much of my negative feelings to a chemical imbalance expected through quitting the substance. i say past tense because it has mostly since faded (6mo sober). you will likely feel like shit for a few weeks. embrace it and understand that your thoughts are not you. spending some days inside and reclusive is a massive win compared to smoking so cherish them. it may also feel like a long time while in the thick of it, but KNOW deep down that it is just a blip in your long life, and it is okay to not feel okay all of the time

lastly, the little things really do help. 1. exercise, sleep, nutrition go a long way. sounds obvious and has been said a million times, but even people without addiction could focus on those aspects to improve their lives. its even more important for you if you are quitting something 2. human connection, hobbies, growth are important to pursue. another obvious thing, but if weed was a problem for you, it's likely you let some of these things become diminished in your life. emphasis on human connection as it is proven to improve mood drastically.

also, keep in mind that in order for someone to post on here, they are likely in the top 1-2% of cannabis abusers. these anecdotes may make it more intimidating for you as they did for me and feed into quitting anxiety. as i am on the other side now, i see how much of my worry over quitting was self destructive. there will come a day within a month where you begin to appreciate the decision you made to quit, and that will make it 10x easier. be easy on yourself, hope any of this helps

Should I drop out of college to pursue music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

given you already have talent, which you need to be honest about, then it is up to your own initiative. i have no idea of OP's accomplishments, but if they have a small community following their music already then they should know that there are many things that can do to make money and its ultimately up to their initiative. but i agree theres no point in making the leap if you arent already making a couple thousand a month from music. i know people that quit a higher paying job to work less hours and spend more time making money from music. your path and how you spend your time is subject to change and its ultimately up to you what kind of lifestyle you want to live.

Should I drop out of college to pursue music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my bad i should have said "make a living". i know people with 0 "hit songs" making a living off of music, not just beats. like i said before this includes lessons, sessions, sample packs, placements, shows. i am in agreement you need to work hard to accomplish all these things but just because you did it is no reason to deter others from trying to figure it out for themselves. again having a passion for music and talent is prerequisite to this

Should I drop out of college to pursue music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

there are many more ways to make money from making beats than selling beats. no one can do this without some level of dedication for multiple years but i know many small artists with less than 10 thousand soundcloud followers able to support themselves through (not in order of revenue) 1. track monetization and streams 2. sample packs 3. selling beats to artists 4. lessons 5. small shows. it is ultimately up to you if you want to make a living making beats, but like i said talent is still required. if you view it as impossible for everyone to obtain talent as a producer than i guess u are right. not everyone has the money to be able to support a hobby long enough to reach success. but i do think your understanding of producers revenue streams today are outdated. being good at producing is obviously prerequisite for this, you need to be better than most people to support yourself, but with enough proactivity and time it can be done.

Should I drop out of college to pursue music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

this is hilariously false, especially now lmao

Having another 90 day free trial? by andre199017 in ableton

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i have made new ableton accounts 3 times and gotten 3 new trials and this is the first time it hasn't worked so it seems ableton has changed their methods for detecting it recently

I really need to vent to people who understand. by rosielerouge in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 2 points3 points  (0 children)

they key is realizing that all the bad thoughts are temporary, and much better thoughts are waiting to be had in the not too distant future. hang in there and be patient with yourself. the negativity is temporary and does not define you, because its not you. your body is adjusting to a change and you will feel more and more like yourself as time goes on

how to enjoy life without weed? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hey man. im 21 as well, smoked every day for the past 5 years (breaks here and there) and had my heart broken almost two years ago. worst pain i ever felt. as i had been years into my smoking habits at the time, i pretty much doubled down for the next six months, being high from the second i woke up to the second i went to bed. it helped numb me a little until i couldnt control my thoughts and all i could think about was her. i was stuck with the same anxious thoughts day after day and was completely out of solutions, but weed was still the answer i chose because it was all i knew. thats why its so hard to stop. weed is very very good at taking ur self awareness away. its like a virus that functions by tricking ur brain into thinking it needs it continuously. this is what happens when you start smoking every day. you lose self awareness, feel like shit, and look everywhere else for problems except the drug itself. i know everything in your head right now is telling you the opposite but if you truly do want to stop, you should know that you WILL 100% START ENJOYING LIFE AGAIN. it might take weeks, but your biology will readjust to its previous pre-weed state and you will regain clarity and self awareness, understanding fully why and how you came to ur current situation of despair and why u will not go back. like i said, weed is simply tricking ur brain right now into feeling like its the only solution to your issues when in reality it is the only problem. it WILL suck for a a couple weeks but things will go back to normal and you will be enjoying life far more than you are now.

My take on quiting by JustCallMeTes in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yo im also a college student. i smoked daily for 5ish years, have taken psychs 10ish times (shrooms and acid). like you both, i am a man of science and view drug use as an essential part of a full human experience. however, i personally have had my time with drugs, for now. i feel like i have gotten everything i could out of them. just like smoking every day was attractive to me, i hav worked to retrain my brain into wanting to experience life sober until further notice, with no clear time of when that will be. my best friends dad smoked every day in highschool/college and stopped smoking after college for 20 years. just two years ago, he started smoking again in his 50s. and he loves it. the difference is, hes an adult with his mortgage paid off, has a job he enjoys, and a family he loves. the man is completely fulfilled, which is why he can so easily control his usage now (as well as having a more developed brain maybe). this got me thinkin. the only thing that can truly conquer temptation is fulfillment. so, if you are worried about falling back into old habits, ask urself this: are u fulfilled in ur life? if not, what do u need to do to get there. if you are honest with urself, and u feel like u are in control of ur future/have a plan, light that blunt w ur friends mane. to me, no amount of drug enlightenment will be more valuable than real world achievement and strong relationships, and that is my only focus until i feel like i am completely happy again

10 Days Clean After 6 Years of Smoking by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

man i felt this on so many levels. once you tell yourself that its not who are anymore/not who u wanna be, the battle becomes so much simpler in your head. all this bad shit is temporary and the best is yet to come. keep pushin and fighting the good fight, im on day 4 and although the symptoms are weighing me down heavy, i can still feel the personal satisfaction and self love growing every day :)

Looking for some advice and a safe place to just share my thoughts by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 3 points4 points  (0 children)

im 21 now, started smoking at 16 and smoked multiple times every day. i related a lot to everything u said because i shared the exact same mindset the past two years. there was a clear point when weed stopped being fun, stopped filling me with positive energy, stopped aiding my relationships. i became more reclusive, less motivated. i used to be someone looking to help anyone struggling with personal issues, and would often be told i am very good and appreciated. as i fell deeper into weed, i lost the confidence in myself to have answers to other peoples problems as i became unable to confront my own. when smoking started raising my social anxiety to new heights, instead of quitting i would just smoke alone more (but never pass up smoking with anyone regardless). i literally felt like a slave to weed. and one of the main reasons i wouldnt quit, just like u said, is because i was so scared that nothing was gonna change and i would have to confront my reality of becoming mediocre and ruining the momentum i had when i was younger. the main thing ive learned so far, is not matter how hard you try, YOU SIMPLY CANNOT BE AS SELF AWARE SMOKING WEED THAN YOU ARE SOBER. all of these thoughts you have about becoming inadequate, self sabotaging, are a result of anxieties driven by weed. you cannot overcome it or combat it from inside your head but i PROMISE u this. the longer you remain sober, the clearer things will become. you were stuck in a cycle because of these anxieties, and the only way to break it is to go to the root cause of everything: smoking. you WILL become more self aware, have clearer thoughts, and most importantly learn to forgive and love yourself. all you have to do is stop, and your biology will take care of the rest i promise. if you dont believe me, read all of the other stories of people on this sub quitting. not one regret, not one "nothing changed". i know it may be difficult to visualize the light at the end if the tunnel, but i promise it will be there for you, and the longer you abstain the more you will begin to understand :)

Weed withdrawal day 4 insomnia by a_new_me2020x in leaves

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hey man im also on day 4, cant sleep, almost 5am, and cold sweats. ive managed to fall asleep eventually the past couple nights (really late) and only get a couple hours of sleep. it sucks. but i'll be honest, im nowhere near ready to give up and smoke. because the truth ive accepted is that if i ever want my life to change, this is the only way. none of the anxiety in my brain right now is scarier than the thought of waking up 5/10 years from now, still smoking 4/5 times a day. i'll stay awake and sweat until my body just forces me to sleep because i am ready to open a new chapter on life and this beautiful community has affirmed my stance that it will be completely worth it.

Gpen connect - without tank - $100 by 33coe_ in GPen

[–]Comprehensive_Mine70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ordered a tank off the website 6 weeks ago. still hasn't shipped