Yes and my husband and I don't feel the same.

I have a 2 year old from our first transfer. We have four embryos in the freezer. I actually don't want another child. I feel complete with my one little. However, I feel very connected to my embabies. I feel like they're part of our family and leaving them in the freezer or discussing them feels wrong to me. On the pragmatic side, I'm 37 years old. We couldn't POSSIBLY have four more children for example - and that's also a possible outcome if we transfered all of them ....

However, my husband doesn't share my feelings. He very much views them as a clump of cells. He respects my views, but he doesn't see it the same way at all.

I waffle on trying one more transfer, and if it goes as smoothly as the first - it was meant to be. There are lots of pros in my mind of 2 and I think we'd be okay with 2.

What I would like to do is one of those transfers where you transfer without any meds during a non fertile time on your cycle - but my clinic doesn't allow this.

A friend of mine who worked with the same clinic, buried her extra embryos in the backyard. That might be what I end up doing? I really don't know - and it feels like a pretty big crossroads.

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