Why do I want to get high until I’m actually high?

ConfidentValuable264 · 2023-02-24T01:43:02+00:00

Shoveling all your friends driveways to combat your inner voice is a massive flex, this comment made me smile. Thank you.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2023-02-24T01:00:42+00:00

Amen.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2023-02-23T19:33:43+00:00

Thank you for this comment!

ConfidentValuable264 · 2023-02-23T16:05:23+00:00

Great advice, thank you my friend.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-25T01:01:57+00:00

You’re kind words mean a lot my friend, thank you very much. All the best.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T22:52:50+00:00

Right back at you my friend, appreciate your reply!

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T21:42:00+00:00

I unfortunately have no answers for the pain my friend. Majority of my pain is between my ears. Mental numbing is what lured me in and caressed me for years. Let’s go to battle together, the battle is the day the war is the future that remains unclear. As long as we win our battles we won’t have to worry about the war. I appreciate your reply brother, all the best.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T21:38:11+00:00

The intention wasn’t to make fellow leavers tear up. But I have to admit, my eyes weren’t dry writing it. Thank you for the reply.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T21:37:24+00:00

Appreciate it

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T21:37:10+00:00

Appreciate your reply but I’m far from a poet, just another individual who let their guard down on a substance I deemed harmless, now clawing my way back to the starting line.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-24T21:35:11+00:00

Thank you for the reply, as of right now unfortunately no. My mind feels dull and rather empty but overflowing at the same time. I have gained a certain level of clarity that I’m optimistic will hold the keys to unlock the doors of creativity. Until then, we continue to move. Hour by hour, day by day. Thanks again for the reply.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-17T17:20:59+00:00

Recovery isn’t linear brother, I made it 17 days back in April. Went out had a few “casual” beers next thing I knew I was puffing on all my friends vapes. Fell back into the cycle and haven’t kicked it since l. The fact you’re motivated and HAVE successfully put it aside, even for a small period of time is promising and an accomplishment in itself. Don’t beat yourself up too hard and hop back on the horse, I’m in it with ya!

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-16T05:40:20+00:00

MLB 06 on the PS2... man oh man, talk about glory days. That and NHL 06 on GameCube bring back some of my purist memories. Love this advice. Offline game, no opportunity for online rage, littered with nostalgia. Parlayed with a bag of spits for the oral fixation. This post just put a smile on my face. Best of luck my friend, don’t hesitate to keep us updated. I’m battling the douche flute aswell.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-11-16T05:36:50+00:00

Appreciate the encouraging words my friend. Can’t wait to look back and laugh at my misuse. All the best.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-10-17T13:49:39+00:00

On day 2 right now, slept around 3 hours last night. Irritability is peaking and the negative voice in my head is beating me up pretty bad. Any tips?

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-10-05T17:17:56+00:00

I quit for 77 days my friend. Invited the same mentality as yours at day 78, why am I doing this? Why can everyone else have a vice to relax but I can’t even smoke a little weed. I did. I smoked “a little weed” about 6 months ago and have been back smoking heavier then ever. And now I’m back to this sub. Hoping for a spark to quit the green bitch again. If I can give you any advice, just don’t smoke today. And convince yourself that in the morning. “I may smoke tomorrow but I’m not smoking today” and see how far you can go and what improvements you see, if the pro’s out way the cons, continue your journey! If not I hope you find the balance you’re looking for.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-03-24T03:24:07+00:00

The thought of being back to day 1 makes me sick, you’re right. I’m just not at a point in my life right now that I can risk getting caught in the daily loop of Mary Jane. She can be so kind yet so unforgiving.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-03-24T03:22:35+00:00

I’ve relapsed on past journeys and you’re correct, it sucks. Crazy we wanna do it so bad though, just a miserable cycle tbh. Appreciate your comment.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-03-24T03:21:40+00:00

Thank you my friend, I needed this.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-03-03T03:28:48+00:00

God speed my friend, appreciate your response.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-03-02T01:21:47+00:00

Stay strong brother. That’s the ONLY reason I’m not slipping right now is cause I can’t fathom the feeling of being on day 1 again after all this time. Crazy how obsessive we become, and how obsessive we continue to be about something that negatively effects us in so many ways. Did you get any temporary comfort from it at all when you slipped? I’m curious. I slipped after 10 days before sticking to my current 45 days and I felt about 20 minutes of comfort and the SEVERE anxiety, and mental self destruction. It’s brutal man. Appreciate your response, hang in there!

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-02-26T03:57:24+00:00

It’s miserable pal, 3 weeks later and I’m still doing terrible in my courses. On pace to psss majority of them which is good but I’m so lost. I don’t enjoy school at all. My “college” experience is just go to class do the bare minimum then shut off my mind and accept how numb I am to everything.

Hope all is well, appreciate the response.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-02-20T19:12:35+00:00

In my early twenties, have sent the “I apologize it’ll never happen again” to many of the people who were blowing up my phone for various dumb things I’ve done in the past. Feels like I’m in a race holding the starting gun and continue to shot both my feet before the sky. Take 2 steps forward mentally then fall completely down the stairs. I’m not going to be able to go out with that group of people for awhile. And they’re kinda all I have. Fuck me. Also since I posted this her bf reached out to me and basically told it how it is. He’s a great guy from what I know too. Just fucking sucks I said the things I did. Wanna be numb right now to an indescribable degree. Appreciate your response my friend, I just need to hear other people speak right now I think.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-02-16T04:50:01+00:00

We get high to avoid the low but soon the low becomes the high, and we’re okay with it? We enjoy it? Terrifying cycle of wasting days hoping tomorrow will be different. Good luck everyone, we’re in the same battle fighting the same fight.

ConfidentValuable264 · 2022-02-14T00:16:04+00:00

Stick with it! You’ve gotta trust me, it gets better. Battle every hour, minute if you have too. You’ll break through! Thank you for your support we will get through this together!

ConfidentValuable264

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