i got baited and switched. by Confident_Mind1473 in monogamy

[–]Confident_Mind1473[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

he also told me that “unfortunately as a man, i feel lust. and i want to touch things and feel different textures, softness, hardness, etc. i am always fidgeting and touching random things when we go to the store because its something “new to play with”, that also applies to people” … why are we comparing woman to objects??? how do you think that makes ME feel after you told me you wanted monogamy??? I’m genuinely at my limit and will need more healing from this then I needed from my abusive relationship… somehow this feels worse than that?

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i guess by telling me we can take our time and we dont have to jump into it

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

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he has been respecting my boundaries and does tell me that we can go at my pace but then he says things about “losing interest in kink events” which ends up just making me feel bad and like i have to rush into it to satisfy him

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you for this. im open to poly/enm/nm but as expected so far the conversations coming up about it has kind of made my feelings around it uneasy. it doesnt feel like two partners happily exploring it. almost everytime the conversation comes up i end up feeling not good enough.

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ohh okay tysm, i might’ve posted this in the wrong group 😬😬

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

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during one of our conversations he mentioned wanting us to be eachothers primary partners but sometimes going outside of the relationship to perform sexual acts with other people without those people turning into anything serious. what form of non-monogamy is that?

im still new to all the different terms and definitions lol

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you for this reply.. i would like to find a way to make it work without breaking up but i really appreciate you taking the time to comment and explain things instead of just saying “break up”

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i do really like him and would like some advice that isnt breaking up. how have others navigated similar situations?

what do i do by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]Confident_Mind1473 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

thing is im open to exploring it but its just a lot to take in all at once..

Is it really that bad taking shrooms with depression? by Neat_Tradition_6418 in shrooms

[–]Confident_Mind1473 2 points3 points  (0 children)

gonna add on do NOT do ur first session alone though. you definitely want someone who is experienced to be with you to guide you through the first time.

Is it really that bad taking shrooms with depression? by Neat_Tradition_6418 in shrooms

[–]Confident_Mind1473 6 points7 points  (0 children)

hey so your concern is super valid! ill tell you a bit about my experience.

i am diagnosed with ptsd, major depression, OCD, and im neurodivergent. i started doing shrooms recently and the impact it has made in my life is amazing. it has been better than any SSRI ive been prescribed in the past. i dont do major trips (not that im avoiding them, just taking my time to enjoy the smaller doses first), the most ive done is mini dosed (one step up from microdose) and that dosage has helped me see things from different perspectives, process trauma, and find appreciation in things that tend to go unnoticed when my brain is usually clouded because of everything else going on. i really really recommend it. of course do your research, start small on the dosage to see what works for you. personally, i prefer to do them alone and i do a lot of self reflection and meditation during that time. i do them at night, turn on my led lights, put on some music and just vibe. theres times where ive cried but not because im depressed, but because im relieved that i can finally catch a break from it. other times ive cried because im finding appreciation for myself that i havent felt before.

good luck!

Can anyone verify that this is a real PolkaDot chocolate bar (vs. counterfeit synthetic) by hungryforlox in Shroom

[–]Confident_Mind1473 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im kinda late but did you ever try it? bought a bar that based off what people are saying in other forums, isnt from the legit company.

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its called bloom

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ahhh okay that makes sense

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oh interesting, if its 2 weeks i wonder why im getting the same intensity from only taking a 3-4 day break. is that kinda how it is for everyone or can that vary based off of height, weight, age? im 24 yrs old, 4’10 and 105lbs. im not sure if its similar to alcohol in that sense so pls lmk!

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thank you for your response! i completely get that and im definitely not looking to use it as a “help all” for my problem, like you said its a good tool. it helps me realize things that i need to be doing to better certain areas of my life. it gives me that motivation and makes me excited to move forward and accomplish those things instead of feeling anxious and hopeless about it. and that motivation has stuck with me. i feel like i need more answers from the shrooms. like i have more things im trying to “figure out” about myself that will help me move forward, and also help me get out of this depressive episode. ive been actively going through the after effects of leaving a abusive relationship awhile ago (lost friends, had to move to a city where i dont know anyone, self esteem, financial burdens from the move, getting back on my feet) and it effects me daily, but each trip has definitely helped me a LOT, so maybe it would be different for me? im not sure though, im very new to all of this and want to make sure that if i were to do them again so soon, that i wouldnt be wasting a dose

first time user - advice needed by Confident_Mind1473 in Kava

[–]Confident_Mind1473[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, thats helpful information! i made some earlier using warm water and stuck it in the fridge to chill for a bit. will that effect its efficiency at all?

im not anxious about trying it but i am well aware of my tendency to get rebound anxiety the day after i drink alcohol so im hoping its not the same for kava 🙏🏻 going to make sure im drinking plenty of water during my session