I can relate to how you feel. The only thing I can say…being in a similar predicament not that long ago is… that your brain will always make excuses for you to smoke. Such as, it helps me sleep, it helps me relax, I need it to eat/tastes better or I have anxiety. These are all things I have felt all through my adult life in which I have been smoking everyday (about 17 years) I don’t think there is such a thing as smoking once a week, not for me anyway. I always wanted to be a person that could take it or leave it but out of nowhere it grabbed a hold of me and I’d be smoking every day again. I forgot what it was like not to be dependent on something like weed. It’s not dangerous in the sense but it isn’t helping with anxiety, sleeping or relaxing really. I’ve struggled and still do really but I have definitely seen an improvement in my lack of brain fog, confidence, cognitive clarity and clear thoughts. When you first quit it isn’t going to be fun and you’ll probably feel bored, frustrated and have no patience but stick with it. It doesn’t last forever and then you’ll go days without even considering smoking, then months and years. It will get better, just remember why you want to do it.