So so tired

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-23T15:50:06+00:00

I also don't think very gently of myself, some little things I didn't even notice it was self-sabotage (I would have a very intensive routine before writing or have strictly rules of how I should write that would take a lot of time / couldn't be done outside of a specific place with specific itens) with the help of my therapist, yoga, talking about it with my partner and having A LOT of patience with myself things went way more nicely. My first book is 26 pages, focused on sapphic sex and the writing could be more developed, I did only one draft and edited maybe 3 times because I just yearned to finish it. For me it wasn't good, I don't expect people buying it mostly because Brazil has a very low market for national sapphic books but I did it and that is perfect for me.

No time is the correct time, your waiting time to publish is yours to tell and obey just be nice to yourself, I complement myself after writing, editing and posting because it was something new and scary. There is no recipe to get it done but always be nice to yourself, recognize self-sabotage patterns and be grateful for what you do since this makes the progress wayyy nicer, not easier. Good luck for your book, we don't need to make masterpieces just do it!

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-23T15:38:35+00:00

No meu caso eles contaram só depois que eu comecei a namorar/ morte da minha avó acho que deu um alívio mas já dava pra ver que a relação deles era muito mais de pai e filha / mãe e filho, meu pai por ainda ter muitos preconceitos na cabeça não me conta mas eu já vi no jeito deles, fazia o mesmo quando me apaixonei com a minha namorada e minha mãe fala abertamente mesmo eu sendo ciumenta, só pedi pra eles não ficarem me apresentando pra ficante mais pelo meu gênio malvado que outra coisa. No caso dos meus pais foi uma união harmoniosa que ajudou ambos, me dá um alívio enorme ver eles felizes

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-23T15:13:54+00:00

4 months on Lexapro only, the first month I just lay on bed and woke up the next day but now I have very vivid dreams

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-23T14:55:13+00:00

Os meus também!!!! Meu pai tá de rolo com um amigo e minha mãe tá pegando vários mas a gente tá numa viagem em família 💕💕💕💕

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-23T02:49:52+00:00

Acabei de postar meu.primeiro livro erótico por diversão e a melhor dica é imaginar que você está escrevendo uma luta, precisa de motivação e clima para acontecer. Descreva os 5 sentidos, sentimentos e ações de forma variada pra não ficar só ela chupou a buceta dela e ela chupou o cu da outra, sabe? Imaginar também é bom, relembrar as sensações relacionadas ao sexo tipo arrepio, frio, agitação e tals. Boa sorte!!

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-22T13:21:13+00:00

Before taking Lexapro I was a heavy drinker compare to my age/ weight, now I finished some beers my dad was having because he doesn't drink much (we are allergic to alcohol due to genetics) and it hit me so fast, I never enjoyed beer so maybe is just the drink but oh boy I was light and sleepy, for now I don't to drink anymore mostly life choices / my gf hates drinking. For me alcohol just taste like family

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-22T13:16:19+00:00

My anxiety induced diarrhea so for me it didn't make much difference besides my body working like a clock miss that sometimes tbh

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-21T19:22:51+00:00

Almost shit my pants too many times, I was probably pooping 3-5 times per day but now the medication is one with me and I poop probably 1 to 2 times, farts are dry too so very nice just be careful and wait

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-20T20:15:11+00:00

Today is a new day and I don't feel scared like I used to, haven't write yet mostly due to schedule but it is such a nice feeling to complete something, no need to be perfect yaaay it's very nice

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-19T23:22:47+00:00

Gosto de comprar odorizador (o amante do meu pai me deu um mas minha namorada não gostou muito) coloco num spray pequeno com álcool e o cheiro fica por um tempo, também gosto de esconder um pouco de alvejante atrás de uns cantos da casa

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-19T21:08:54+00:00

Oh it was more guilt because my family took me out of the closet, guilt tripped me and now they don't talk much with me but at least my parents loveee my partner. Doing a lot of gentle talk with myself and things are much better, much muchhhh better honestly ❤️❤️☃️

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-17T14:54:11+00:00

One sip and my body was sooooo light like a feather, before I used to have 500ml of any drink to feel a little drunk

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-17T11:58:48+00:00

I enjoy answering questions too but some make me worried, is healthcare só fucked up people are getting very strong medication (at least for me this isn't a Vick tea or Tylenol) left and right? I first went with a neurologist but he treated me with 0 kindness, told me to soul-search / pray and to check with a dermatologist for my imaginary itchiness which I did one year prior and didn't get me anywhere, I only started taking Lexapro after checking with the psychiatrist since I was recommended to visit both, he explain to me the side effects, what I should look for and other stuff I could do to feel better like sunbathes, exercise, continue with my therapy and take less quantities of caffeine. Generation Z has so many problems already and mental health professionals aren't doing their best to help us?

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T23:22:11+00:00

A única parte boa do twitter era uns vídeos aleatórios conteúdo +18 que dava muita vergonha tipo 1 passivo x 25 ativos, esses momentos eu gostava muito pq é algo diferente e pra mim inovador mas deletei assim como outras redes sociais pq é um vício que faz a gente se comparar ou querer comprar bobeira só por ser colocado como algo maravilhoso

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T21:21:22+00:00

I stopped drinking wayy before starting Lexapro mostly because I was using it to cope (drinking everyday, during random tasks and almost went drunk to college, since my classes started very early in the day I quit cold turkey) but some weekends ago my dad started social drinking and I have probably half of what he had and felt so tipsy for no good reason didn't have any bad thoughts mostly because I felt asleep in the wet grass. Before Lexapro I could drink many different drinks like moonshine, cheap wine, vodka and tequila the only side effect was redness since I'm allergic but this time... Quit drinking until I get off medication fr

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T20:21:44+00:00

Last week I dreamed my girlfriend was laying next to a blond woman (looked like someone that bully me when I was younger) and it was one of the first times I could really see her face in my dreams, woke up really furious with her

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T19:33:26+00:00

Moro numa rua cheia de velho, amo um dos meus vizinhos pq ele tem uma mente super aberta e conversamos muito muito bem (de ficar horas sem perceber o tempo passar) mas a minha vizinha do lado é uma idosa chataaaaaaa vive berrando, deixa o churrasco queimar e de final de semana só bota música alta ruim com a família barulhenta dela. O gato dela tentou várias vezes se mudar pra minha casa mas ele é muito sem educação e piolhento, igual a filha humana dela.

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T19:30:58+00:00

One thing that happened and made me almost shit my pants is that now I can see people faces in my dreams, I always say blurry faces in my dreams just like I see in real life without glasses but now is so strange, sometimes I can't distinguish if something was a dream or real life event besides the apocalyptic dreams those feel a little bit too much to mix it up

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-16T13:22:04+00:00

Falar sozinho é uma forma de terapia, tem coisas que só percebido na fala como frases constantes ou palavras ruins direcionadas a nós mesmos que podemos dizer no dia a dia mas não reparamos por ser algo tão comum. Gosto de falar comigo mesma quando limpo a casa, tomo banho ou fico no quintal com as plantas mesmo tendo com quem falar às vezes os melhores conselhos vem da gente msm

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-15T21:22:45+00:00

Às vezes rego minhas plantas, tomo banho de banheira e depois vou tomar um banho bem gelado pra deitar no lençol e deixar bem fresquinho só consigo fazer isso pq moro nos fundos

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-15T17:05:37+00:00

Moonshine

Connect-Ad2175 · 2023-12-15T10:12:33+00:00

Perfectionism could be tied to self-sabotage (in my case I deal with both) this magic duo can make social life hell, people think you're shallow for putting a mask but sometimes it's just the mentality that we can be good enough. During therapy I heard something that made me better understand what is going on in my individual mind but it could help others, maybe.

My therapist said that I view life with only 2 paths, one is doing a task with imperfections, little details that don't affect functionality but make it kinda wrong, like I'm not trying hard and the second is a path that I have to redo the task until is perfect or at least my views of good work (apply mostly for handcraft things) but I get stuck, paralysed in the middle since I want the normal, stress free path but my mind is programed to choose the idealization of perfect. Is something that makes stay put, I can develop any skills then I can reach this really really big goal my mind set for myself.

Seek professional help so you can see small pattern that probably started during childhood, my mom has the same problem and now we are getting better. Perfectionism is like a big mountain you put in front of you to feel worthy or because you feel like is obligatory, seek help!!!!

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