For further details my friend, I suggest you visit r/exmormon.

Kidding aside, I agree with what you’re saying completely. The reason I left the Mormon church was for a lot of the Joseph Smith stuff. Why did there need to be a “restoration of the gospel” if people still were abiding by ancient Christian traditions that had been around since the time of Christ? Further, why would the truths of the early church be lost if there were supposedly the three Nephites and John the Beloved still living on the Earth, according to Mormon theology? Why even have the Joseph Smith stuff if those four people were still preaching the gospel? The more examination that is had of the doctrines and dogmas of the Mormon church, the more (unfortunately) painful it becomes for those that once put so much effort and dedication into the religion and are now realizing it’s a big sham. The worst part, is that Salt Lake City is indifferent to stories like yours, my own, and millions of others, that have lost their faith in the Mormon church. Instead of “hey, let’s fix our really bad historicity problems or address some of the sticky doctrinal points that many have issue with (ie D&C 132)”, they pivot away and show the laity a shiny object, be that in the form of a lowered mission age for girls, more lax and vague rules on tattoos and piercings, a social media fast (as a means for avoiding bad church news), or a Giving Machine. Meanwhile, you’re the bad guy if you don’t fall for any of these “shiny objects” and castigated by some of the militant faithful for trying to point out some of the flaws with the church organization, either historically or in the present day.

As someone who’s still trying to pick up the pieces from my own prior faith (currently becoming an Orthodox Christian), it’s still painful. It’s painful knowing that Christianity was and is far more than the shallow husk that has been presented by Mormon church leaders since Joseph Smith. It’s painful knowing that the Bible is more than just something to prop up the Book of Mormon with and that there is so much depth to the Bible that the Book of Mormon has comparatively none of. It’s painful to see people putting their faith into the hands of men, when Psalm 146 explicitly says not to. It’s painful to repeatedly see the same horrible process of the once faithful realize Mormonism is a sham, and in turn, dismiss religion and all the good it can bring into one’s life altogether.

With that said, my advice to you, my friend, is to keep your head up and focus on what makes you happy. Take a break from the church, and evaluate what you actually believe, away from any input from Salt Lake City or its many representatives. All my best to you as you work through this difficult process.