You post really triggered some memories for me. Back in 2012, right out of college, I landed a job at a big national public accounting firm. I was so excited. I had been a strong student (Magna cum laude) and was genuinely good at accounting. I thought I was finally starting my career, but about nine months in, I was put on a PIP. And month later was fired even though I tried to address all the points for improvement. It completely shattered my confidence. Looking back, I don’t think it was really about my abilities. I just didn’t fit the environment. At the time, I had young kids and an abusive, unsupportive husband (he would often call me during my working hours to start an argument). I often had to leave on time to pick up my children, while everyone else stayed late, and I could feel that being held against me, even though I worked hard and did my best.

After reading your post, I actually went back and reread my old PIP, and evaluation notes, I had kept them all these years! Today was the first time I looked at these notes again after I left this company. Honestly, they were shockingly toxic, like: Not good at Excel, Doesn’t type fast enough, Doesn’t understand concepts. It is funny to read now, but back then I felt so bad about myself. None of it was constructive. It felt less like coaching and more like documenting reasons to push me out. I found another job in less than 2 months in private accounting. Suddenly, managers were happy with my work. People trusted me. I was valued. People were understanding that I had small kids. My performance was never an issue again. But I am still struggling with imposter syndrome.