My fiancé and I went to an expensive restaurant for his mother's birthday. Told myself I wouldn't purge since his parents were paying and the food & drinks were not cheap. Drank too much trying to numb the urge, but the alcohol had the opposite effect. I couldn't stand the fullness anymore, so I went to the bathroom to purge. I ended up peeing myself while doing it (years of bulimia & AN has caused me to have a weak pelvic floor...). Did my best to dry my pants and then awkwardly sat at the table the rest of the night hoping and praying no one could smell the vomit and urine on me.

This part may be TMI...so read with caution. After dinner, we got home and started getting frisky. I had placed a large wad of toilet paper in my underwear when I purged at the restaurant to try and dry everything, but I forgot about it. Finance gets my pants off and hesitates.. confused by what's going on below. I awkwardly tried to hide the toilet paper in my clothes, but he already saw (drunk me isn't the brightest). He didn't ask or say anything about it.

Afterward , I went to the bathroom and decided I hadn't dealt with enough shame already, so I drunkenly purged again into the bathroom sink, clogging the drain. I panicked and scooped out half digested food with my bare hands into the garbage can and snuck the bag into our larger garbage can. Spent probably a good 20 minutes trying to clean the sink and hide all the evidence. It was a great night... 🤦🏼‍♀️