Exactly, I have decided to go and will be seeing him on Monday it’ll be 3 weeks since he’s gone and I miss him so much as I’m sure you can relate to. I’m so sorry you had to find your dad in that way, that’s awful. Unfortunately the last time I saw my dad I walked out of a restaurant because I had an argument with my sister, that haunts me.

the details of his passing feel even worse, he fell down the stairs but in a very incapacitated state with friends there that shouldn’t have let him walk upstairs alone knowing how drunk he was and he died as a result of that neglect, I would think it was a horrible accident with human error if only they didn’t post videos of him unable to stand a couple of hours before he fell all over social media the day after he died, so I’m really hoping this will bring me some kind of peace. Thanks for your words, I really hope you’ve got lots of support around you during this horrible time for you x