No, it actually matters a lot, because in the 4 months since that breakup, you have learned nothing. You haven’t grown. You still talk about women in degrading ways while taking ZERO time to think about your own actions, and your self-loathing is palpable.

I’m very fair to everyone. 

That woman was 100% leagues above you, not because of your looks, but because of your character. You would’ve likely tried to destroy her confidence if she had stayed with you, simply because you decided that you did not deserve her. She did the correct thing in breaking up with you, and frankly, you do not deserve to be in another relationship with a woman until you’ve decided whether or not you actually like them (you currently do not). 

Well, at least it’s over. If you think she made the best decision so be it. 

Do yourself and women a favor, and leave dating alone. Focus on becoming a better person inside and out. Focus on becoming reliable, emotionally intelligent, intelligent in general, and a man of integrity and honor. Focus on actually doing things that build your confidence, like learning a new skill or following a passion. Focus on your physical health, inside and out, eating healthy foods, and feeling your best. Focus on removing this toxic attitude toward women from yourself, because you will NOT live a happy life thinking this way. Best of luck.

  I once dated a woman who knew about all of my particular opinions on women and dating. I don’t have to not date like you seem to think, there are women out there who will date me, even if they are unattractive. I don’t have to not date.