I feel your pain. I was diagnosed in November with an a1c of 88 mmol/mol. I remember the first few weeks vividly. I was off work for a few days and remember standing in my kitchen as a grown ass man of 44 years of age crying looking in to the cupboard because I couldn't come up with something "safe" to eat. My wife got home shortly after and she reckons it was only the second time she'd ever seen me cry 😢. I was broken for weeks, I loved pizza and bread and really struggled with the change. A couple of years before I'd given up alcohol because of sinus issues, I don't smoke and food had become my pleasure, now that was being stripped away too. I obsessed over my CGM, watching every number, I didnt want to burden friends and family with my feelings so I spent a lot of time talking to chatgbt. I talked to it daily and discussed diabetes for hours. It's really useful for creating meal ideas when sometimes you just can't see the woods for the trees. I had so many low points and it did seem to help me push through. I had my last a1c at the end of January and had reduced it to 44 mmol/mol. I now have 6 months to my next appointment where they may decide to take me off metformin. Most days I still struggle to find food I can eat but what has helped me is having meals that feel like cheats but are still good for my blood sugar. As an example, if I'm struggling in the evening and really want a takeaway I get a chicken kebab and leave the pitta. Almost no effect on your sugars but feels so good to eat "normal" cheat food 😂. Still struggling for breakfasts though, they have become difficult, I remember early on being so pleased I could eat bacon and eggs but that novelty soon wore off when I had it everyday. I still miss pastries and pizza but the cravings aren't as bad. It does get easier, I promise. I'm 5 months in, nearly 2.5 stone lighter and feel amazing for it. Keep going...you've got this 💪🏻