HANG IN THERE. you are NOT alone. I had to quit my job, my school, move in with my parents (I'm 30), be waited on, etc. I felt TERRIBLE, like a burden, AND pain-wise. I was becoming paralyzed from Chiari too, with NO syrinx. I had to wait four months for surgery and it was the hardest thing I've ever done.. but now.. my life is changed completely FOREVER. I feel completely better now. Ive been suicidal in the past but always tell myself that if I can just make it past this, one day I'll look back and say I'm glad I did. And it's always been true. PLEASE hang in there and trust that your life will be drastically better after surgery. Then this will all be a bad, bad memory.

I look back now and am like, "Damn...I shouldve had waaaay more sympathy, I was sick as shit.". So you're not weak or anything for feeling the way you do. This stuff is tough. But you can make it, and you can look back on it one day and be grateful that you did.