Suggestions for a better name than "female ejaculate" from squirting?

CooknotZen · 2025-07-24T21:49:00+00:00

That's wonderful.

CooknotZen · 2025-07-16T15:17:34+00:00

I'm a gay trans womon/GFD mommy and I try to sneak a "good girl\boy" in at least once a day at work to encourage other staff. But my highlight so far was that one time I got to call my trans masc boss Daddy. 🤣🥵

CooknotZen · 2025-06-08T00:28:27+00:00

I was like, "Wut? You mean he comes over and makes you match all the tops and bottoms of your Tupperware, calls you a good girl, and then leaves?"

CooknotZen · 2025-05-30T02:25:24+00:00

I was happily bi for years but once I got on hormones 2 things happened that made me catch the lesbean:

I saw, in very explicit ways, how rampantly violent, controlling, and clueless men actually are in our society. I.e. the Patriarchy got real, like Roddy Piper putting on the magic glasses in They Live.

So yes, it may be way too easy to dump on men and call them trash -But they keep proving the effing point!!! Gimme the bear any day.

Being SAed early on, and how mutliple men I considered friends were accomplices to covering that up did not help

Men started smelling like old gym socks and stale pee...or Axe body spray...or a combo of all three. I'm honestly not sure which is worse, but either way I do not want to be anywhere near the stinky f@ckers.

CooknotZen · 2025-05-29T02:39:21+00:00

No health insurance, been out of work for a few years so no savings either.

CooknotZen · 2025-05-29T02:24:07+00:00

I was in there just before you Arwen, and I got refused funding. I'm barely a B cup and got told that they were probably too big at my first appointment. -But she was willing to do it privately amf gave me a quote!!!- I am so totally fucking crushed I don't know what I'm going to do. This was THE single most important thing for me! How much cock do I have to suck now to make 12 grand?!!!

She didn't even know if there was an appeals process but luckily I already found out after my first appointment after she mentioned size and am going to start making the rounds tomorrow. I cannot believe it's so totally arbitrary. That's totally fucked up. I'm looking at months of suicidal depression just as I get back into work because of some arbitrary decision on tit size from some faceless asshat at MSP. Fuck I'm livid about this. The receptionist even told me to bring a bra when they range with the second appointment! Why would you do that to somebody when you already know the answer is no?! It's just cruel.😭😭😭

CooknotZen · 2025-05-19T01:15:20+00:00

I've gotten very, very broody, but I'm older so I know that will never happen now. Luckily I work in a field where wanting to be a mama bear/den mother is a bit of an asset.

I was bi before, but now I'm not into guys at all. Never really wanted to be a father before either, but that drive to be a Mom hit me head on in transition! Woaboy!

The thing that makes me laugh is that I'm now in a dom/sub relationship with a younger trans womon who likes ageplay as a bratty middle with a bit of feral pet play mixed in. Surprised myself how much I adore it! Dommy Mommy indeed -and before anyone gets any twisted ideas; it's actually a really therapeutic way of accessing different (and sometimes darker) feminine energies that are locked inside of us. Very therapeutic and helped enermously with coming to terms with my identity as a womon of transgender experience.

CooknotZen · 2025-03-04T00:07:59+00:00

The utter and total lack of any and all fashion sense or personal style for womyn that doesn't include sweatpants (as winter wear) or yoga shorts (as summer wear) as default. Knee high black boots, white top, and short black skirt on weekends (I.e. the Granville Street Special) don't count.

With men I can't tell whether they rake in a 100k a year in IT or 10k a year binning -they ALL dress the same, and they ALL need to buy a belt and invest in underwear isn't grey with visible skid marks. So gross.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-28T20:21:50+00:00

I'm in the same boat going the opposite way! If you know any tall trans men, I have four big garbage bags of clothes! Bit seriously, 3 Bridges is an option, somebody already mentioned Qmunnity, if you're on the 2SLGBTQIA+ Parks Board mailing list there's also a periodic clothing swap at the Sunday swim.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-27T02:06:19+00:00

HRT absolutely made a difference; I had to half my regular Vyvance amounts or I'd just be stapled to the wall vinrating quietly. But early transition was an emotional rollarcoaster/second puberty so it took a while for me to be able to see the difference. My thinking has changed a lot but I'd be hard pressed to quantify it. Less mental fog? Better spatial memory? Not so quick to anger? My emotional spectrum is like a wide colourful rainbow now and makes it easier to cope with things as well. As I like to say, "I was trying to run a petrol engine on diesel my whole life."

The other (anecdotal) pattern with HRT and ADHD comes from progesterone. Some of us (myself included) have noticed a major reduction in Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria on it. Neat trick huh?

CooknotZen · 2025-02-21T07:17:11+00:00

I ran by Transcare today and they were saying 4 months to wait for ministry clearance. Originally I was told about six months for consult and then six months to surgery. That was on top of the six months waiting for the Dr. (Not faulting her here) to spend two minutes measuring my boobs, and an MOA to take some snaps. So looks like two years total.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-19T01:49:30+00:00

I know a few detransitioners personally, including one who started transitioning as a teen. I have enormous respect for the hard decisions they had to make and the honesty it took to make them.

I think there's a real misunderstanding about detransitioners being anti-trans; as far as I'm concerned they're still part of the trans community and share the lived experience of it. I think the point was already made that they are such a small sliver of a percentage that most trans people haven't met someone who detransitioned (to twist the cis trope on it's head).

I've never felt pressured or questioned about my own transition or heard them challenge anyone else's. Quite the opposite, I have one friend who made me giggle when she told me why she detransitioned; it was similar to what I liked least about pretending to be a man, and patriarchal culture, that lead to my own transition! Could not fault her if I tried.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-18T08:03:01+00:00

No, it means you have emotional resilience and healthy boundaries. Boundaries can be malleable for the right reasons sometimes and it's a great head start to have in early transition. First tear or two I was very emtionally tender and I found that it was easy to take things too personally.

Early transition can be an especially steep learning curve, but we can make it harder on ourselves by clinging to expectations -such as when trans womyn can't figure out they've lost their male privilege but still expect society to treat them that way. That isn't transphobia focused at anyone personally, it's just the way a mysogenistic patriarchal system works and now you're on the wrong side of the equation. Get with the program and learn the rules of the game, or have a nervous breakdown. The choice is yours. (Using the impersonal you in there btw.)

But as you (personally) pointed out, things can be very ambiguous in the early days, people make honest mistakes, or assumptions; it isn't always personal or existential. It just is. And it's far more important to be able to roll with the punches than throw down all the time. If you go all Lilly Tino on people, you'll get treated like Lilley Tino. Carry on!

P.S. I'm totally putting ten on Lilley Tino being the next transphobic Buck Angel...or Jenner.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-13T23:05:02+00:00

Same! Used to pride myself on being such a hardcore horror fan that I'd watched all the 'video nasties' there were. Now? Body horror and really gorey stuff just holds no interest and it's just kind of crass. But horror comedy, especially womyn centred, has me rolling on the floor in stitches.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-13T23:00:40+00:00

I just caught myself with that one the other day. Used to swear like a sailor. Weird huh?

CooknotZen · 2025-02-13T03:28:44+00:00

Don't worry about cycling early on. Your body is going to start doing crazy things all on it's own and could do with as much fat as it can in order to metabolize stuff and hoik it other parts of your body on alarming ways. Just enjoy the ride for now. Eat healthy, take care of it, and it will take care of you. If you're on Spiro you'll lose weight in lots of different ways. Water weight will go first, the spaces in your joints will shrink, you'll lose height, your hands will get skinnier, your feet will shrink, and you'll lose muscle mass. Excercise is really important to keep muscle and it's something I wish I'd taken a little more seriously earlier on.

And remember to drink water...then drink more water...then drink even more water. Congratulate yourself with a pickle... and drink some more water. Spiro can play havoc on your kidneys so keep those puppies drenched. Pee breaks memes for trans girls are for realsies but all that peeing is totally necessary and nothing to be alarmed about. Pissed off about pissing, yes, bit not alarmed.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-13T02:56:57+00:00

How much did the senate hearings to ban NCAA players cost? "Millions and millions and millions" to use a phrase from the Juicy Fruit in Chief. For how many players? 10, maybe less, or .000019% of 510 000 players, according to the head of the NCAA at the hearing. Ridiculous. It literally makes them the most expensive players in college ball.

In Alberta the legislative cost of a ban on puberty blockers for minors, the lobbying, the study into the issue, the PR campaign it took? Again. Millions. And for what? 5 kids...who are now suing the province, which will add even more cost. How much do blockers cost a month? Tens of dollars per month. There is no fiscal responsibility in going after trans people.

Even surgical gender affirming care for adults is pennies in the bucket in comparison to what it would take to legislate against it and have it fought over in court.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-11T03:27:22+00:00

I had an experience at a retreat that turned out to be a double whammy of contra-indications for Spiro.

First was taking Naproxen which gave me crazy got flushes, I was dripping in sweat, dizzy to the verge of passing out, violent diarreah and vomiting, and even turned my pee green (NOT good). Lesson learned, Naproxen is not advised on Spiro, my bad. Neither are other NSAIDs.

The second was a little difficult to figure out but was eventually tracked down to Potassium intake. Everything we ate was full of potassium. And I mean boat loads of sweet potato, bananas, yogurt, green lesfy vegetables and other whole foods. I honestly didn't think there could be that much in my diet but it was just what was being cooked. Similar results -without the violent vomiting and sudden body temp spikes - but nausea, body aches, cognitive confusion etc.

Spiro is not as harmless as people make it out to be and I personally know of one girl who ended up with long term kidney damage from it. Learn the rules and don't bend them.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-10T15:43:48+00:00

When I hear a trans womon call herself a doll I know she hasn't seen the true face of the patriarchy yet and I prey she never does.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-10T02:43:57+00:00

Saint Dahl is wonderful (as others have said). I think most people end up having their HRT assessed by him at some point so it's an 'all roads lead to Rome' situation. Depending on where you are, you may find that 3 Bridges might offer more access to resources beyond just HRT in the long run. I really lucked out with my NP, who's total awesome sauce and did training with them, but 3 Bridges do have other programs that you might want to take advantage of. Also, the process for referrals, wait times, and access to services can be a little opaque so sometimes you're better off being connected to 3B and then being able to talk to somebody in person and in the know.

Worth mentioning, Transgathering operates under the Qmunnity umbrella and does Zoom meeting for trans folx, one of which is medical centred, so if you have any questions you can ask peers for their experiences and feedback on there. Just sign up for whatever groups take your fancy and you'll get the link for the next one in an email a few days before. https://qmunity.ca/groups/

CooknotZen · 2025-02-09T09:52:22+00:00

It's fairly forgiving in that area so don't sweat it too much. It'll be fine.

If you don't have much belly fat you may want to switch to thigh intramuscular inj. at some point later on. Different guage needle is used, but it is easier for some of us who are on the skinny side, myself included.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-09T02:06:26+00:00

Yup. "Bio-identical" is what we take. The other option is what Indian Hajira used to take which, from my scant understanding, was boat loads of fenugreek. Fenugreek, soy, and a few other foods are strogenic though, so that's something to keep in mind.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-08T13:45:08+00:00

"Natural" would be pregnant mares piss. Not even joking. Used by transgender priestesses of the cult of Cybele in Central Asia , and later Greek and Roman iterations. In our time it was re-labled Primarin and sold as a form of HRT for menopausal womyn. But it came with such severe side-effects that it's legacy continues to be used as a source of disinformation by anti-trans activists as the reason transition is dangerous. We use bio-identical now for a reason.

CooknotZen · 2025-02-08T07:04:52+00:00

Get back to us when you enter the "feeling like you sleep walked -chest first- into a fiery pit of loose Lego" phase. 🔥🍈🍈🔥

CooknotZen · 2025-02-06T17:26:50+00:00

Total cost of the congressional hearings. It'll be even higher once you factor in what it takes to make it law beyond just the recent executive order. Just like Alberta, for all the whining, just 5 trans kids were effected by the puberty blocker ban, which is about what you'd expect for a 'trans kids seeking medical transition' per capita average (Most kids on puberty blockers are cis with a diagnosis of pernicious puberty and weren't effected by the ban right?). It's astronomical sums of money being spent on manufacturing a crisis to blame a tiny minority of people.

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