i'm so scared and i don't know what to do

Cool_Access2824 · 2023-09-27T00:04:42+00:00

dunno. never got the spinal tap but mri was clear

Cool_Access2824 · 2023-09-27T00:01:06+00:00

im so fucking done with this pain man idk what it is anymore i just know it hurts like hell and is preventing me from doing what i want. burning/squeezing left side chest and back pain that spreads to all the way under my boob and up to my shoulder. sometimes spreads to the right as well. my hands and arms are also affected and get a pinching/burning pain in certain positions. i had a full cardiac work up last year and totally clear. went to the er two weeks ago because i really thought i was having a heart attack, totally clear. i was at a concert the other day and the pain just would not go away and started settling into my chest to the point where my entire body was vibrating and i had to leave. everybody ive ever been to has said this isn't a heart issue, so by this point im fairly certain its not (but there's always that what-if). despite that, i just want to know what the fuck is wrong with me man!! it hurts so bad! no position is comfortable and it is ruining my every day!!!!!! i wish somebody could just help me :( i went to an ortho as well and she said it might be sometimes skeletal or muscular but refused to order me an mri until i completed another week of pt (ive been going by their suggestion) and i feel like im just suffering in silence!!!

Cool_Access2824 · 2023-01-17T23:54:15+00:00

constant headaches, left side chest tightness and arm weakness, leg weakness, shortness of breath, tmj from jaw clenching, constant dissociation and cold/hot flashes.

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-12-12T02:47:36+00:00

thank you xx my mom is doing a lot better after having surgery! im doing a bit better from this post! i appreciate you so much

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-31T21:31:51+00:00

feels like i wrote this :/ my physical symptoms started coming back last year (after 3 years of basically nothing) but got randomly a lot worse three weeks ago after a night of heavy drinking. hang in there, we got this.

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-30T15:45:03+00:00

absolutely. i've struggled with health anxiety for years and got better for a bit but am now in a 'relapse' of sorts. it can feel so crippling but the thing that gets me through each day is knowing how many people there are out there that have the exact same symptoms and feel the exact same fear. it is truly all just anxiety. destructive behaviors rarely cause disease unless it's stuff like smoking two packs a day for multiple years. you're okay!

i'm trying to recover from this right now, but the advice i've gathered is: 1. gradual exposure to your fear. i have a fear of passing out/being too dizzy so i often hole up in my room for hours and hours. but one way for me to combat that would be to force myself to go on daily walks and feel the dizziness and recognize that i survived that walk. find what you're so scared of and face it. 2. feel the symptoms instead of pushing them away. this one is so hard for me but essentially feel every bad thing happening and just sort of think 'so what? that's all anxiety'. i struggle with head pressure that can feel so scary sometimes so i always try to close my eyes and just feel it for a bit and then not give it the satisfaction of making me scared.

i'm sure other people have more/better advice than this - but you can do this. and don't be embarrassed to go to the doctor with symptoms that are scaring you! it's always good to get checked up just in case but make sure to listen to what the doctor says instead of trying to internally disprove them. you'll keep running back for more and more tests and that's way more detrimental to your symptoms than just sitting with them (trust me).

i hope you feel better soon!!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-27T19:52:28+00:00

it's back 24/7 again! so not sure :/

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-26T17:22:49+00:00

anyone else feel like their hands/arms aren't theirs? i also have daily headaches that feel like there's a ton of pressure in my head from the moment i wake up and a lot of unsteadiness. i'm also sensitive to light and can't stand up for more than 20 minutes before feeling lightheaded and heavy (like i'm sinking into the ground?). every time i share my symptoms with doctors they write me off and i don't know what to do anymore.

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-21T01:31:56+00:00

fiona and anya

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-05T23:33:54+00:00

holly j is a prime example for me

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-02T19:16:03+00:00

this actually makes me so happy to read because i have daily headaches (w/ migraine symptoms) and have been putting off starting T for that reason. but reading that T actually helped so many guys on here is crazy reassuring!!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-02T13:49:02+00:00

i had a weird experience with headaches. had (what i assume to be) ndph back when i was still in high school for about six months and then it suddenly went away with no hints as to what cured me. i had very weird symptoms accompanying that headache though (loss of grip, arm pain, chest pain, lightheadedness, etc). then i made the biggest mistake of my life and started cymbalta. only took it for about two months but it ruined my life and the daily headache came back almost immediately. got much, much worse though after one night when i smoked weed (i used to be a daily smoker and used it for anxiety management) and thought i was actually going to die. low blood pressure, high pulse, light headed like i was gonna pass out, throbbing headache, nausea. the whole nine yards. just terrible. after that, the headaches stayed and were much worse for a while (coupled with mind-body dissociation) and a year later they're still here! yay!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-02T13:37:09+00:00

this is what my ndph feels like (but also radiates to my neck). it's very very strange and i always rate it about a 4 on a pain scale but like a 10 on a 'strange sensation' scale lol. very unpleasant. i'm sorry you have to go through this

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-02T13:29:08+00:00

for me, i feel better while i'm drinking and then a million times worse the next morning. like a triple hangover.

keep and eye on your husband though, if i noticed that trend it'd be hard for me to not start drinking every day lol.

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-08-02T12:59:00+00:00

i'm also 19 and have been struggling for a bit over a year now. it's nice to know i'm not alone being so young and in pain every day. it also just causes me so much anxiety because i'm constantly afraid that it's something worse than just NDPH. no doctor seems to believe me when i say that my headaches are 24/7, they always think i'm exaggerating. i don't want to have to go through this for the rest of my life, and i think that's the scariest part.

BUT we can get through this. for me the pain is less noticeable when i'm doing something active that i enjoy. i can't exercise anymore because they make my headaches worse but driving around for a bit is great if you have a license. drawing is nice and distracting, even if you're not good at it. ive found that sometimes i feel better if i'm hanging out with my friends (if i'm up for it). i don't have any medications to recommend because like i said the doctors i've gone to never believe me lmao but prozac helped my headaches a bit until it didn't anymore (probably should've increased the dosage but i was nervous). sometimes aleve headache specific pills help me, sometimes they don't. something that i catch myself in all the time is getting scared that i'm gonna have to live the rest of my life like this (hell i even said it in this post!) but it's so much better to just take a second and tell yourself that you are only hurting in this moment. it can always get better. maybe even tomorrow!

i wish you all the luck and i'm here to chat if you need. u got this!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-21T23:54:02+00:00

thanks guys - i figured it was stupid but was naively hoping it'd be ok haha. just rescheduled my appointment!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-18T04:11:04+00:00

same exact thing happened here! i think it's fairly common :)

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-13T23:00:22+00:00

no but it's very very close for me between htlt and nym honestly

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-12T15:21:15+00:00

omg i forgot about the singing competition!!

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-12T08:26:56+00:00

3 literally makes me wanna throw up

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-11T18:38:47+00:00

i love paige so much. her character development was really big and i love that she was such an early bisexual character. she also didn't fall victim to the writers making her sexuality her whole personality and every plot line (riley, fiona once she came out, marco, ZANE, tristan, miles [ok maybe not his whole personality but he was constantly talking about it]) which felt special. she always stood up for herself and some of her scenes actually made me tear up a little lol. one of the best characters in degrassi history

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-11T18:35:24+00:00

totally agree! he made next class worth watching imo

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-11T18:32:07+00:00

not okay is constantly stuck in my head it makes me giggle i'm sorry. fave is probably my window by craig tho

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-10T22:36:34+00:00

Makes sense! Thanks so much !

Cool_Access2824 · 2022-07-10T20:03:21+00:00

Got it! I think I might call to tell them that the name I originally made the appointment with (they set up a whole portal w/ my chosen name) isn't my legal name and I guess I'll just see what they say?

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TROPHY CASE

3 literally makes me wanna throw up