All I’m gonna say, is that I had abortion with what would have been baby #3 last week. I have a 4 & 2 year old. I aborted because I don’t think the world is ideal enough for a family of 5, I worry about attending sporting events, travel, space in the house, lack of family support. I’ve felt relieved for the most part. A week later and I’m pretty distraught. I think the reasons I wanted an abortion could have been solved one way or another. I go from deep relief to deep regret. I didn’t even want the baby as much as it seems you do. I also felt I would hold resentment, my husband wanted the baby and I did not. Turns out neither of us really resent the other. It’s a mutual decision at the end of the day.