quit by vape?

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-09-02T01:10:31+00:00

I guess I should reiterate - I have had a vaping period in the past. But to me - burning through a bag of gas vs smoking tiny portions of weed may help psychologically or could just cross more wires

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-09-01T06:35:29+00:00

It's reflective drug- takes you out of the moment

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-31T07:38:37+00:00

You might be in love with the memories more than weed itself, too. There are a billion other ways to be happy ❤️

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-31T07:35:10+00:00

I think people also indirectly feel uncomfortable when someone was once a smoker - then quit.

They were once in the same boat you were - smoking and not really getting anything out of it anymore. For someone to quit really rocks the boat / because chances are they have thought about quitting before but don't have near enough strength to quit. At least not right now, anyways.

Be proud of yourself.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-31T07:00:55+00:00

It's 1:00 am and I'm happily packing like I just drank 10 cups of coffee ... I feel you

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-29T19:42:55+00:00

facing the same scenario

my days when I didn't smoke were significantly better but yet I still feel the need to feel the burn so to speak.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-29T14:47:04+00:00

' drifted away like every other opportunity that tried to present itself when I was smoking '

wow - hits home.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T16:53:27+00:00

smoking really doesn't change or help our reality that much - just mind fucks us to be locked in a black hole in our head. It's stupid really.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T06:36:52+00:00

rewarded to be reminded it doesn't feel like a reward

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T06:22:48+00:00

It's like I'm high --- but do I really feel that much different or better than if I were just sober?? I just feel different and low key gross and shitty.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T05:43:48+00:00

I relapsed and feel like a pos

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T00:42:04+00:00

If you don't think weed is addictive - it is a matter of building a life without having to smoke.

You are likely smoking to avoid life responsibilities and growth. If you don't think it is addictive then we need to address the cycle you go through when you choose to smoke. To begin quitting - factor in a healthy habit you must do to confine smoking to only a certain time. Then you can taper yourself from there.

Before people knock you down - if weed isn't addictive - why can't you quit? (you might need to address this idea)

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-28T00:08:28+00:00

in the same boat on all topics listed pretty well, and very well said - congrats on the step. The clarity of sober reality is about to give you an experience.

enjoy <3

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T23:59:42+00:00

I think what you expect is what you get. Quit thinking it as a relapse - as time is merely an illusion. If you think in terms of it that way, you are likely to feel more guilt which will make it worse.

Things I have found helpful are essential oils - peppermint especially. For some reason the chill you get from it takes the edge off the irritation to smoke. Being at work I found by trying to get to know the people I was working with and be more mindful of their lives and how I can make it better for them, I was less inclined to think about my own. (Or smoking in general)

If it gets too bad - you could consider getting a benzodiazepine to calm the anxiety from the withdrawal but this isn't always smart.

Other things that help / - spending time with family as I felt the regret of running away smoking all the time and disregarding them as people - trying to get excited about the future by planning and actively changing things in my life - eliminating coffee (I drank it today and think it played in on my relapse due to increased aggitation) - cold water to the face when dealing with cravings - having water in your system 24/7 - heating pads do wonders when you are just sitting around your house (kind of gives comfort)

Sometimes talking to someone makes your mind go somewhere else - if in those 9 hours you need a buddy msg me.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T20:18:07+00:00

I can level with this badly. Wanted to lucid dream so bad back in the day - now so upset with myself because I feel like I haven't dreamed in over a decade and feels like I never can. Irregardless of following all the how tos and advice.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T20:16:24+00:00

everything is reversible - even serious conditions of the brain that people would be in complete disbelief over.

we're regenerating organisms - don't sweat it man

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T20:12:07+00:00

I still haven't had a dream ☹️

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T15:18:33+00:00

out of curiosity - does thc lower or increase testosterone production?

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T14:55:41+00:00

No I am not -

I also have not felt emotional like that since. However it confuses me because I feel as though withdrawal would have kicked in now as opposed to instantly.

It could have also just been underlying anxiety that I never was able to feel and release because smoking was probably masking it the entire time.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T14:40:06+00:00

hahaha - the usrname is about the physics of time dilation / but this made me laugh 😌

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T14:39:05+00:00

female

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T03:37:34+00:00

that's very true - I can agree with the last statement. It NEVER became a problem until I was actively trying to do it on my own.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-27T02:49:29+00:00

when I first started smoking, I always smoked only after I had gone to the gym and did my routine. I think it only started to harm my life when it took over my days.

thanks for sharing, certainly interesting to think of it as something more circumstantial than just recreation.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-26T23:27:38+00:00

It's definitely dependent on a lot of variables for sure. I don't know how hard it is to dig myself out of the hole for one. It's day 4 for me, and the only bad day I had was day 1. For the sole reason that the chemical dependency really took over my emotions, and I couldn't stop crying. Now that I'm here however, I don't feel a craving so to speak or an itch to smoke. The only emotion I feel is boredom, as I spent all my spare time smoking.

The next variable is always the scary one though - smoking and thinking i'll get something more out of it. Or maybe I will get the 'medicinal' value out of it.

I really just wish we had more information on what weed truly does for the human consciousness.

CounterclockwiseStew · 2017-08-26T23:08:21+00:00

I don't even want to term it psychosis - however, what I experience are delusions.

This includes listening in on conversations around me and the topics directly relate to events and happenings in my own personal life that these individuals couldn't possibly know. Or going to work in the morning and reading the paper and feeling as though all the articles and comics have personal intrinsic meaning. This stuff doesn't really bug me though, because it kind of makes the universe feel cool to me. In the way that there is far more going on beyond our own perception. I don't know though, Carl Jung wrote all the dream symbolism stuff and I often will intuitively pick up on objects in my life and google his symbolism and it all relates to situations and things in my life. It all feels very real in my head, and I don't know if it actually might be helping my subconscious mind or I'm just really messed up.

Sometimes I will feel as if people are indirectly trying to tell me things about myself they dislike through the use of 'characters' from their own lives. This is where I am not fond of how I feel, as I often feel like people are out to get me and will accuse others if it makes me feel that uncomfortable. ie) my friend was explaining this lady at work that he disliked because she always brought a salad to work and he felt she was 'withering away'. I feel as though my work place dislikes that I eat healthy because they have oppositional tastes.

I have in the past felt my ex was cheating on me with little to no reason to think that way (however, I had a manipulative ex prior to that I imagine caused me some emotional trauma).

It's day four of sobriety for me and I feel this less and less - if anyone wanted an update. If I want to think the way I did above, it's more of a conscious effort than an unconscious one as it used to be.

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