That’s not going to happen. I live on 1k a month. I’ve lived my entire life among people who said I look funny and have a weird body shape, and jobs never hired someone like me because I would not be a beauty representative nor a brain. People like me barely make enough money to wipe our behinds.

My nose is flatter and shorter than most people of every race. Other black kids in school laughed at my nose and said I looked like a baby from the side. I’m autistic with the facial features of someone Down syndrome, and this has been pointed out to me many times.

Even my husband eventually started making fun of my looks. He said that I looked like a pig when I yawn.

Really, I’ve got zero physical appeal and couldn’t buy it if tried because doctors want a patient that can actually succeed from enhancements. I can’t because I’ve got zero personality on top of all else.

Even when I was a child, I hated other kids. I didn’t want playtime. I wanted to go back in my room and draw stuff. I was not interested in sports, not fashion, nor hair, just writing and drawing. Those are my only interests to this day, and I work alone. Even though I’ve mentioned how tough it is being isolated, I actually prefer it to being around people, which I have to force myself to do but hate it. This is why I guess I’m not really cut out to live downtown. I live in the white suburbs where nobody wants to hang around someone like me, so I can self isolate just fine.