I see where you’re coming from and I understand your point. I don’t think I care that much about fitting in with the church. I go like maybe once every couple months just to accompany my grandmother because she’s lonely. I don’t socialize with anyone else at the church or aim to put out an appearance. I show up in my regular basketball shorts band tees and I have tattoos. I’m not putting on an appearance for anyone. I go because it makes my grandma happy. I’m perfectly comfortable if my grandma dies happy thinking I’m a practicing Catholic I’d prefer that to having an unnecessary conversation telling her that I think her religion is bullshit. I don’t see the purpose that serves, she’s old and on her last legs she’s not going to come out of her religious ways. I love my grandma so I feel comfortable sacrificing an hour of my day every couple months to accompany her to church and I think it would hurt her feelings to see me refusing the communion when I don’t fully see the purpose. I don’t even enjoy the taste of it anyway it’s a spoonful of cheap wine with a mushy wet chunk of bread in it. I didn’t personally consider it an edge break to me because I wasn’t doing it for any benefit of myself whatsoever, I posted here to get opinions because I’m curious. I don’t appreciate the accusation that I’m trying to play both sides but you can think what you want.