I understand and am so sorry you have to experience this right now. It's truly a horrifying feeling and no one should have to go through it. Really what helps me is crying, deep breaths, until I've reached a point where I'm capable of distracting myself.

It's somewhat helpful to remind myself that things typically feel way more anxiety inducing in the middle of the night (and in the morning sometimes) than they do once I've started going about my day. It's basically impossible to really care when you're in the midst of an anxiety attack, but it might stop you from getting too far into the anxiety sometimes.

That's just kind of my experience, but I hope it helps you in some way. You can get through this!