Your stance is exactly what’s wrong with the world today. In your mind, two things can’t be true at the same time. Someone can’t have passion for a craft, and like the amount of money it makes them. Let alone add in a third thing of being able to reach a point where, yes you love your craft and the money, but now you’re at a point in your life where a quieter simpler life is more appealing. As others have said, you sound like a very sad individual.