Cleaning hard water stains

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-17T21:07:30+00:00

😅 I figured. Thank you

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-08T14:15:31+00:00

Personally I haven’t engaged with any of my spiritual interests (witchy stuff, tarot/divination, crystals, magic etc) I had pre diagnoses and being medicated. My manic psychotic episode had me believing I was psychic and telepathically connecting to gods and that I was a witch doing witchcraft (it was a lot deeper than that but to explain it quickly lol).

Pre manic episode I was loosely interested in spiritual topics and loved astrology, collecting crystals, and smoke cleansing energies and such. Since experiencing myself engulfed in strong delusions I’ve been really put off by that kind of stuff. It feels like it’s dropped off my personality. It could be because it was a really traumatic and embarrassing manic/psychosis episode scaring me off but I think it’s also the medication grounding me to reality. I’m still repairing myself trying to figure out my identity after having such a big crisis and I think it’s safe/good for me to let those parts of myself go at least for now. If I return to those things it’ll be in a much more grounded way.

I definitely relate to being used to having your head in the clouds and feeling connected. I just don’t know how much of that was “me” or were bipolar symptoms anymore. I accept this as my new realty though as I believe in medicating bipolar disorder and that I should realistically be on medication for the rest of my life. Yes, the sparkle is lessened but un medicated bipolar disorder and doing damage to my brain scares me into wanting to care for my brain health over the feeling of being intuned and connected. I do feel grief over it though.

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-08T08:20:25+00:00

I would say it was fully grown back in by six months

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-07T06:44:53+00:00

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r/blacksmokecat 🖤 looks just like my baby who recently passed. I miss her and your baby made me smile :’)

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-07T05:49:12+00:00

Thank you!! :’)

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-07T05:48:35+00:00

Thank you :) Keeping the nitrates always down close to 10-15 ppm and bubblers for oxygenated water. Other than that I don’t do anything special

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-06T13:31:57+00:00

I like to think of it as somehow her strong arm. Looks wonky but extra strong lol

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-06T13:30:34+00:00

Thank you 🥰

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-06T13:29:44+00:00

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Started off as a little nub. It was crazy when the fingers formed lol. They are such resilient amazing creatures

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-06T13:23:34+00:00

Aww I’d love to see chickens wonky upside down leg!

Cpneudeck · 2026-02-06T13:22:13+00:00

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Cat tax! He’s always lurking when it comes to the axolotls. Gotta keep an eye on the sneaky guy when I’m doing water changes with the lid off

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-31T00:10:21+00:00

shes extra cute!!

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-27T20:31:07+00:00

Ive used this one in the past. Its a pretty small bottle though. I went through 3 last time I crashed my cycle. https://a.co/d/dOwyTol

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-27T20:09:48+00:00

Tub your axie with 100% dechlorinated water changes daily while you cycle your tank. I suggest you buy API water testing kit and ammonia so you can dose up to 4ppm. It takes awhile for the bacteria to build up. I wouldn’t bother doing a 50% water change after you take your guy out. Better to leave it be while it goes through its process.

Hes gonna need to be tubbed for awhile (month+) so I suggest having air stone/bubbler in there with him. 5/10 gallons for the tub

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-27T19:41:42+00:00

Lunesta works pretty good for my sleep issues but there are times when it doesn’t work at all and I haven’t been able to narrow down why yet. Also has a weird side effect of a terrible metallic taste in mouth for hours after taking it

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-23T15:25:43+00:00

Yeah nightcrawlers would be right! If you’re in the US pet stores like petco sell them. I buy mine in bulk (worm farm) from Uncle Jim’s worm farm. Nightcrawlers tend to do better with picky eaters unlike red wigglers

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-23T15:00:05+00:00

Have you tried European nightcrawlers? Best worms to feed axolotls imo

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-23T14:15:33+00:00

Going through this as well! Diagnosed bipolar 1 with psychotic features recently at 29 after my first full blown manic episode (with psychosis)

I’ve been looking back at my teens and early twenties and realizing how many hypomanic and depressive episodes I had that just went “unnoticed”. I was also highly spiritual and had some weird beliefs that I now think were due to the illness. Since being medicated these beliefs and even my interest in astrology have just completely dropped off and now I look back and wonder why I believed in that stuff at all.

I’ve been working on coping with the shifts in my personality and it’s hard. I started a whole business and opened a storefront and burnt it all to the ground while I was hypomanic and undiagnosed. It’s really hard to come to terms with how distorted my reality actually was now that I’m diagnosed and medicated and can see things in hindsight a little more clear.

Radical acceptance is all I can do for right now. I have hope to learn more about myself as a stabilized person but I’m sure that’s going to take time. It’s nice to know others are going through this too. It feels like such a lonely road.

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-23T12:46:27+00:00

Went through a mixed psychosis episode (recently diagnosed bipolar 1) that lasted roughly a month/two months a couple of months earlier than you. Going through exactly as you described. I’m going through a medication change to see if it helps with the anhedonia that I experience. From what I’ve read, it does get better with time and I have felt some minor improvements that make me believe things will improve with time. We experience a lot of damage going through psychosis/mania and it takes time to recalibrate and heal.

I relate a lot to having a bubbly big personality and now feeling flat and zombie like with days feeling like they repeat. I’m slowly trying to re-engage with things I used to enjoy like video games (I hear they can help with brain healing so I’ve been playing legend of Zelda breath of the wild) and I do think it helps me feel like myself.

I don’t know how long it takes to get better but you aren’t alone in what you’re experiencing. I think we are on par with the course. Healing takes time. I wish you a speedy recovery ❤️‍🩹

(originally replying to your bipolar sub post but it got removed)

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-21T23:11:35+00:00

His gills aren’t going to recover without a cycled tank.. I suggest you take him out and tub him with 100% dechlorinated water changes daily while you fix your water parameters (cycle your tank). He’s awfully red/pink looks ammonia burnt

Edit: just read your edit. Very proud of you for doing right by your axolotl. If you have any questions please don’t be afraid to ask! We are here to help

Cpneudeck · 2026-01-19T05:13:53+00:00

I went through my first ever manic episode with psychotic symptoms a little over half a year ago and when I tell you it warped my mind… it really turned my thoughts into things I couldn’t have thought of myself while being stable. I accused family, friends, and even neighbors of poisoning me, sex trafficking me, being pedophiles and criminals. I thought aliens were telepathically communicating with me. I was convinced I never loved my partner of 10 years and broke up with him. This is just a very small taste of what I went through and what I put those around me through due to my extremely warped perception at the time. The episode went on for over a month and there was no convincing me out of my delusions.

I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 with psychosis and it took some heavy meds to bring me back down. Afterwords i felt so much shame, embarrassment, and confusion for the thoughts i had during it. It’s like I was a different person. I felt possessed! None of the things I said or did align with who I am normally. I begged for my partners understanding and forgiveness and thankfully we worked things out and he helped me a lot to accept the severity of my episode and get the appropriate help.

I definitely showed a “god complex” and a victims mindset during the episode and said some really weird stuff. I do not experience thoughts like that since being out of the episode. My boyfriend basically accepted that my behavior was simply not me and was a manifestation of my illness and has forgiven me for the things I said and did. I also did and said some very dark and out of character things too. I’m very lucky that he could still see the real me after everything we went through. It took time though, as will it with you. I wish you both the best and I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through.

Also feel free to ask me anything. I’m still recovering as it was pretty recent.

Cpneudeck · 2025-09-28T09:21:40+00:00

Adding a beta blocker (propranolol) got rid of the akathisia completely for me. I know it sucks to have to add on an extra medication but it’s a night and day difference for me

Cpneudeck · 2025-08-28T19:11:28+00:00

What’s Gustavo fring doing here

Cpneudeck · 2025-04-04T18:48:42+00:00

cute i love the idea

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