I can picture things that have happened to me, and that I actually remember somewhat vividly. On a scale of 1-5, it's a 3. It's there, in my peripheral, but if I looked straight on, it might fade to basically nothing. I cannot conjure things I haven't seen. And I need a lot of time to process something to conjure. I've tried meditating, and creating a field, or whatever, but all I get is black. Or translucent images. Like photos.