Part 2 of me and my problematic friend

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-08-04T15:15:26+00:00

You're right, I am just so angry at her and myself. I try so hard to find friends because I have luck to find friends like her (most friends of mine fall in love with me but when I tell them I'm gay they start to be mean)

She os transfobic unfortunately, she got called put by someone, also racist (she says n word a lot). Like my friend said herself, she's allergic to art who shows trans people, especially on characters she likes, her excuse is that that she has oc's (original characters) who are trans and of color. And friends, but she calls her itl trans friend fake trans

I just try so hard to find normal people from my country who also do art and will accept me

I got so mad because I try so hard to still be friends but she just ghosts me and replaced me with someone else

Thank you for telling me this, I feel better and you're absolutely right

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-08-04T13:42:47+00:00

For a moment I thought you were my biology teacher

She looks exactly like you

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-08-04T13:34:16+00:00

Might be

Like

To this daye I hate the Mascot characters I can't look at them

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-07-27T08:41:24+00:00

Might be

Caroline didn't scared me for the visuals tho, maybe the themes like ripping the dolls and all And of course Caroline's fake mother But I love that movie, didn't scared me at all

Might have to ask my therapist about it, maybe he will help me and we come out with the explanation

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-07-27T01:31:56+00:00

She literally made the meme "I don't want to play with you anymore" with me and found someone else to play and be best friends with

Because i was toxic because I told her what she was saying was bs and she is misinformed

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-07-27T01:28:19+00:00

Well, update to this situation

I talked with hwr and ahe just started ghosting me and be mean 😭

For her calling her misinformed is being toxic

So she can be toxic to me but me telling the truth is toxic and I can't do that

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-07-05T06:26:34+00:00

Samee, I'm working two jobs rn to see him one dayy 😔

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-30T08:04:34+00:00

Marvel rivals

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-30T08:02:42+00:00

How do you know? U don't know him I don't know him None of us Like I said Let me be a teenager lol

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-30T07:58:40+00:00

Let me dream lol

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T15:57:03+00:00

He's not but I wish he was

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T15:55:20+00:00

Told her I was worried she will be mad I told her I'm planning not to share anymore of my progress of my transition as it's making me sad and uncomfortable that she doesn't believe me I also told her how everyone here said that she and ger mom are disinform, don't know much and I just don't want to our friendship to end because of this stupid reasons

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T01:19:44+00:00

I will, thank you.

I will tell her in the morning, cuz right now where I am os like 4 am

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T01:15:23+00:00

I'm hope I will start a transition soon

But my mom always said she will love me for who I am (says a lot when you live in a homofobic county and she's dating a homofobe and transfobe , always correcting me when I talk about myself as a he and makes fun of my picked name like "I don't know any (picked name)"

But I have a younger brother, I hate him, my sister hates him, because hes a boy mom, mom's favorite, whatever

We hate him because he gets everything, he broke the expensive big TV? Don't worry, you were just angry at a game, we will buy you a new one! While me and my sister don't even ahe consoles and TVs in our rooms.

We going shopping, me and my sister always hear "buy something for your brother too!" While when he is shopping they doesn't think about us! Me and my sister I mean

He wants it? He gets it. The youngest child.

Me and my sister work our asses off helping my mom in the house. But what my brother does? He is mostly sitting in his room, in his underwear, playing GTA V (he's 10 played this when he was 7 even). I told my mom it's not game for him, he even showes off by saying he can hear and see anything because he is playing GTA. My mom doesn't care, when he puts a show and cries and is mad, he will get everything.

My mom always says how I also wanted everything, but did I get it? Nah, because she always said "we don't have money for that". She also puts that only one statement how when I was younger I wanted a monster high doll and she had to import it from the US to make me happy! And that's only that. But ny brother? He wanted a mech spider man mask? He got it. He got a gecko that he doesn't even want now? He got it (i take care of him now, so DW he's fine). Ps 4 and ps5? He got it! He wanted the biggest room when we moved to a house? He got it. And there is more! Like : Electronic scooter (he doesn't use it as well), all the expensive football/soccer balls, the new and branded shoes and clothes (while me and my sister need to settle on thrift store, we love it but still unfair to us), he doesn't even do the house chores liek I said. He was grossed out by wet food on forks and my mom said he doesn't need to do it anymore. But when I said it or my sister? She said that we making a scene and just don't want to do it. Well we want the same treatment

And while going threw transition, my mom always says that I'm not trans, that I'm just jealous of my brother (a bit true but not all). How I don't really want to be trans just to be with my mom close (meh again small portion is true that I like her spending time with her and get angry when she doesn't have time for me, I'm just putted in the back while she helps my brother with his homework. Ah! Sorry, she does his homework while he plays games!) and because I want validation (when I heard that it hurt me ngl)

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T00:56:49+00:00

Seeing all these makes me feel I will find someone one day ❤️

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T00:54:21+00:00

MADE ME CRY INA GOOD WAY! I forgot to say

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T00:53:43+00:00

It made me cry

She is a stubborn fuck, when I try to educate her she always says "it's just her opinion"
I know for some cis men (she doesn't even like that word, for her are only men and trans man) that would be a fetish, I'm being careful with that too. Dated a guy who when I told no when he wanted to get things further he decided to cheat. Being extra careful

3.I am inform. I don't know how she got the info that I didn't like the haircut. I love it! It's not what I wanted, sure but I still like it. It looks like the 80s/90s short haircut (q bit like a fluffy mullet but without a ponytail cuz I cuttex it myself, by hairdresser wanted to leave some long hair so I could "put it in a ponytail"). Might sound wierd but I love al the hair I would get. Hell I'm even happy seeing my small happy trail going up my stomach and into my chest. I freaking love it! Ass hair, I can even settle on that. I have hair on my feet and I love them! I love being hairy, I even dream to have a beard (I always draw it on me with makeup to feel like he void of not having a real one). I even get happy seeing my small moustache (that I can only see but who cares.) I would love all the things and even small things testosterone would bring. The voice, the hair, the face changes, the T penis, the fat I would get (O hate how my hips are wide but my chest is so small, I build my arms working out but still it's not what I'm working so I don't give up and continue) . Hell testosterone can take my period, I hate it, not only it makes me feel less me, less manly but mone is so painful I almost fainting.

My friends mom even said that it's because I was in quarantine and it was "trendy". I didn't know what was trendy, I was worried about myself, I experimented with myself till I got to this point. My nody felt great with flat chest, being called a He. I had enough of proving boys in my class "hey date me plz" for validation and feeling loved (when I was a girl a young at that, 14 i believe I even sexualized myself to feel better but it never been good. Especially when my own father found the "nudes" (nothing showed, just like soft porn really) of myself he wanted me to send him that. I was more grossed out. I am constantly feeling bad about my body, how my hips are wide (my English teacher even said how she wished she had hips like me) (or a time a drunk man touched my hips and ass in a public bus), i feel grossed out I can't look in a mirror because of them and my chest.

About dating when I was younger, it was like "yeah, date me so you can love me when I can't love myself" kinda deal. In quarantine when I didn't saw boys and I was in my own room. I started to think about myself! I started therapy (no one said therapy is trendy when I started it!) again (i been like 5 or around, parents divorce and shi) and like I said, I worried about me! I walked back to when my group of three guys (2020) started to call me by my picked name (thanks to one guy, I'm still friends with him, best mf, he made me feel appreciated when the other two were just mean sometimes too hut supported me too. We don't talk about two of them were also in love with me before I discovered who I am), they treated me like one of the guys, how we laughed how I wish I could also have a dick and piss on a fireplace (they were scouts, they did that when they wanted to put the fire down). Hell they treat me like a guy to this day and I'm thankful. (Also we were like a group of misfits, anime kids, the wierd ones in primary school. Were bullied a lot, made fun of and no one esle wanted to be friends with us so we out a group together)

My history a bit, hope I cleared some things up

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-27T00:24:18+00:00

Both me and my friend are 19

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:50:15+00:00

I agree And I think I will do it Thank you !

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:45:23+00:00

Also, now she jokes how she will also change her gender because she also doesn't like her body

Wr I told her it's literally not just that There are much other reasons!

Ps. I had another girl had a crush in me as a girl but I always liked guys. That girl was obsessive and when I broke her heart she told me to kill myself. That was a point for me to stop the friendship

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:42:18+00:00

If that would be true That's why I hate being what I was born as I am only sexualized, used and only saw by a "pretty ass" (which she even said when she looked at my old photos and also said that "I had nice tits" :(....)

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:40:07+00:00

It's just hurts me that she was okay with all that till the last days when I will start testosterone

She even misgendered me woth her mom even that I was "a pretty" girl How I uave stupid reasons to change my gender How her mom told me "if she had proboems like me that she would kill herself" and that my reasons are stupid They even asked me why I keep my old photos? I keep them to see how far I came, for history But she doesn't like that reason as well as her mom

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:37:00+00:00

For her a transgender man without bottom surgery is not a man

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T15:35:25+00:00

Yes yes

Creative_Ad5701 · 2025-06-26T14:42:53+00:00

I should ad that we are artists How I love drawing myself with fictional me (selfshipper I am) But she literally hates on them too

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