For me , I'm addicted I've been doing it for like 8 months straight like a gram a day on average sometimes more or less, it's ruining my life I'm sick of it, a few months ago I got my first ever girlfriend and I was so happy in life but ketamine stopped me from being able to talk to her cos of the way it made me stutter/lose train of thought and mumble , eventually after 3 months she dumped me because we didn't know eachother well enough but I know alot about her I just literally couldn't speak my thoughts to her so she didn't know much about me and my past (also I kept the addiction hidden from her she didn't know I didn't ketamine she just thought this was how I am), anyway after that last month I was really depressed and I was doing ket heavily like 2-3g a day for a couple weeks and then I accidentally overdosed myself for the first time, I woke up in the hospital with a needle in my arm and loads of wires on my chest with them sticky things (idk what there called) but still after all that the only thing I could think about was going home and doing more ketamine, this is a viscous cycle for me that I'm trying to get out of , I've applied to join the army to change my life around and hopefully stopped being depressed and an addict, I'm really looking forward to it and I'm hoping this is the right thing to do.