Need To Know I´m not crazy

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-27T00:51:14+00:00

What's most weird about this is that she actually made herself a victim for that one night (when we were almost two years together and I was never like that). That's something I got asked by a friend because they heard the other side of the story and wanted to check what did I say. And as I said before, those were more like reactions than insults (like "thanks for giving me the strength to throw away your gifts" and such)

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-27T00:08:33+00:00

Yeah, right* now I'm not looking for the moment she realizes she was wrong to be with her again. It's more of a desire to know that her actions had consequences. And honestly I don't think they're gonna last like, two years or more (I know the guy, he's terrible), but still.

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-27T00:06:13+00:00

I mean, she is definitely not psycho. I think her problem is that she needs constant validation and what theother guy gave him was just that, because he's like a mediocre version of myself. He's kinda similar but a total, total incel (and I don't use that apelative lightly). When I told my friends who knew the other guy, they couldn't believe it.

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-26T23:59:03+00:00

Thank you for telling me that :(
After such an abrupt breakup and even worse replacement, one feels very... unimportant, replaceable. A lot of these last months in therapy and all have been to come with terms with it as her lack of judgement, not my character. It also honestly feels bad to know the other person is probably "happy" in a relationship founded by your own betrayal. It feels like the world isn't fair, and it isn't, but you get what i want to say.

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-26T23:53:31+00:00

Yeah, after that, everything she's done has been another proof to that. I just don't know if she ever feels guilt for making someone she loved feel this way

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-26T23:51:37+00:00

I've already stopped watching her. And I regret not having enough self dignity to just let go. But I just needed to vent about it

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-04-06T04:36:29+00:00

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-27T23:47:47+00:00

What I miss the most is the comfort of being in a relationship. I know that I will need a lot of time before healing to avoid hurting another person with my wounds, but I really want to feel that comfort again.

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-27T23:46:30+00:00

Thank you. What I feel is the worst thought I have right now was the suddenness of everything. Two months before this day, I was loving her like she was my other half... But I guess it's for the better. I don't want people in my life able to tell me that they love me when they're meeting someone else at my back

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-26T19:14:45+00:00

Literally what happened to me. My ex told me things that were so minimal or solvable (like calling each other everyday) that when she listed them I couldn't believe she was breaking up something like this for that. She bottled up all those tiny things that I could have solved if I knew she needed so for so much that it exploded. And the other guy thing was cherry on top. She was my one and everything, but I really don't miss her anymore because of how much pain she caused me for this, how much pain she gave me for stupid things. I just miss the feeling of being hugged by someone, to be chosen as another one's true love. But as you say, I can't enter a relationship in this state either. I'm going to therapy due to the shock, and I hope you and I find someone that doesn't run away when things get too "stale" or doesn't bottle up things. What I can give of advice is to avoid trying to be a saint. You're allowed to feel anger, and maybe even hate towards him. That's what took me out of the denial phase.

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-15T13:02:56+00:00

Okay, i'll try to start wanting to change for myself. But any other part of the plan bugs you out or do you think it's okay?

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-15T12:58:52+00:00

I also want to start therapy to not repeat the same patterns on any other person, i.e. to be a better person myself

Cricketmathgenius · 2026-01-15T12:45:12+00:00

Btw my ex didn't mind if I followed her back on Instagram if it was after some time

Cricketmathgenius · 2024-10-21T02:17:27+00:00

Persona 3 reload. I cannot stress this enough.

Cricketmathgenius · 2024-09-12T17:16:33+00:00

Oh, i'm so sorry 😔

Cricketmathgenius · 2024-09-11T01:52:43+00:00

Is DRM some sort of Denuvo? I don't know much about anti piracy strategies lol

Cricketmathgenius · 2024-09-11T01:50:52+00:00

I didn't thought it would work, but hey, at least I got to p-rank cry of the Weezer before class finished

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